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Micah St. Clair (auteur) wrote in gooseberry,
@ 2016-12-07 17:58:00

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[GIRL TALK: all sophomore boys except Calvin basically]

OK MEN!!!! After recent events I think we can ALL AGREE that romance is terrifying and confusing???? HOWEVER as we are saps* susceptible to peer pressure and ALSO no longer germy immature freshmen, we must finally BUCK UP and talk about the dragon in the room.

WINTER FORMAL

Sooooo the person I usually ask to dances is this HUGE COMPLICATED THING now and Micah St. Clair does not do COMPLICATED, my friends, and therefore I'm casting my eye elsewhere. But WHICH FINE LADY should I ask????? We gotta do some pre-gaming on who everyone's asking to Winter Formal because A TRUE BRO doesn't ask out his bro's prospective date or anything. So let's talk.

WHO ARE YOU ASKING TO WINTER FORMAL?

Oh yeah I mean we can talk about asking out boys here too???? NBD GUYS THE HETERONORMATIVE TITLING OF THIS WARD IS JUST BC IT'S CATCHY and not bc I want to block you from your heart's desires or whatever.

*Blah blah blah don't lump us all together BLAH BLAH not all of us are huge losers like you Micah BLAH BLAH. Yeah yeah yeah I know some of you are super smooth dudes but that just means you can HELP THE REST OF US with some sage suave advice!!!! And by the rest of us I mean Will because man does Will need help.

[Added after this conversation:]

[Warded to Calvin Evercreech]

HEEEEEEY CALVIN. Sup gi dude.

Ae you staying for Winter Break again?

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Ward

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2016-12-07 09:29 pm UTC (link)

THANKS MAN!!!! I think you're all cute and funny too. Except those of you who have REALLY QUESTIONABLE senses of humour but hey haven't we all been there ONCE OR TWICE with a joke that makes everyone go uhhhhhh what?

Anyway I feel like objectively and logically you're right but I dunno why is it that part of me still likes the guy who thinks WHO I AM is just... bad. Or at least he kind of always acts like it's bad?????

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Ward

keepmarchingon
2016-12-07 09:39 pm UTC (link)

~~I mean not really~~

I've been watching Calvin, if that's who you're talking about. Do you want my advice?

I think he thinks you're making fun of him. So I don't think he really sees you the way any of us do. Because everybody came here with their own experiences, and how people treat us shape those experiences. And Calvin hasn't seemed to be treated that nicely during his time here. So he probably uses those experiences to assume that everybody isn't going to treat him very nicely, and what's crueler than pretending to like him when you don't?

I don't think he thinks that who you are is bad, and I don't think he's acting like who you are is bad. I think he thinks that everyone is bad. But that's not a reflection of who you are. It's a reflection of who he believes we all are. So he doesn't hate you, he hates who he believes you are.

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Ward

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2016-12-07 09:47 pm UTC (link)

OK so... how do I make it obvious that I'm not making fun of Calvin????? Like I tried being NICER and it kinda felt like we were starting to GET ALONG and then the whole Amortentia thing happened and now I'm like pretty freaking sure he has to 100000% hate me now. Like HOW DO YOU GET BACK FROM THAT??? Romcoms have given me the worst advice here.

Which is where SOLOMON WEBB comes in with the MOST SOLID ADVICE EVER startingggggggg now.

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	Ward colemoss 2016-12-07 09:51 pm UTC (link)
	calvin doesn't hate you, micah. especially not because of the amortentia thing. ~~he wanted to thank you but he didn't know how. he told me.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward auteur 2016-12-07 10:07 pm UTC (link)
	Are you sure????? Because I GOTTA SAY if something like happened to me and made me crush on like idk the boy I dislike most, I'd feel awful. I couldn't look at him again????? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Ward colemoss 2016-12-07 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	i'm sure!! i promise. calvin doesn't hate you. (Reply to this) (Parent)

Re: Ward

keepmarchingon
2016-12-07 09:57 pm UTC (link)

My name actually looks really great like that. It makes me feel more pressure to actually give you solid advice and live up to how great my name looks.

I'm not good friends with Calvin. I don't know how his mind works. But I do know that you're not making fun of him, and I do know that that attempt has kind of backfired dramatically. And Amortentia freaked out a lot of people, from what I can only assume, because it was a very vulnerable experience for them. Love makes you vulnerable when it's real. So when it's fake, and you have to live through the repercussions of what you do and say under the belief that you're safely in love, that could create a lot of animosity. I don't know if that's what he's feeling, but it changed how he behaved toward you dramatically, and he probably didn't appreciate that.

But I believe that Calvin is a quiet, private kind of person. You're the exact opposite of that. You're loud and open and dramatic. Which, neither of those things are bad things, and doesn't mean you should abandon your quest for love. But it should be founded on a friendship and an understanding. For him to understand that you're not making fun of him, he needs to understand you, and what you're like. And you need to understand him, and what he's like. I suggest you start small. He was made vulnerable by a love potion, maybe you should show him a vulnerability to make it even. So you don't have, I mean in essence, something on him that he doesn't have on you. And I don't mean you should reveal love to him. I mean you should reveal something honest to him that you don't reveal to anybody else, whatever that is. Give him something you can't take back, even if it backfires.

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	Ward auteur 2016-12-07 10:08 pm UTC (link)
	Solo... That's... really beautiful, man. ~~I don't know if I~~ Thank you. [...] OK I'm going to do it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Ward keepmarchingon 2016-12-07 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	Really? I mean okay, but are you saying that because you're ready to do it, or are you saying that because you acknowledge my attempt at advice, and acknowledge that I'm not actually experienced in anything even remotely close to actual relationships, and you don't actually want to do it? Either decision is fine, and acceptable, but I'm curious. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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