Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in doors,
Re: Call: Evie S/Wren H
I wish I could understand her. Hell, I wish I could understand me. I'm afraid I'm going to make her as sad as I am. Or that she's going to know she makes me sad and its going to mess her up permanently. It's not her fault. She doesn't need to see me for the mess I turned out to be. I don't know what she wants or needs, I can't anticipate anything she does. She's like a beautiful chubby ridiculous little stranger and I feel like I'm supposed to know her better than this by now. It's been six months, Wren. What if I missed something monumental while being sad and selfish and lonely and now I can't fix it? What if we never connect? My father seems to have it figured out easily enough. They're two peas in a pod already. She and Will were two peas in a pod. And I can't figure her out. What if I never do?