ciara fawcett. (ravensidekick) wrote in disorderjournal, @ 2018-04-04 22:04:00 |
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Not to jinx it, but it almost feel like spring is here to stay.
[Grace and Lee]
So, I talked to Grace about this a little. I think I want to quit my job. I'm tired of being scared for eight hours a day. The thing is, basically everyone who have left so far are being assumed, by Yaxley at least, to be Order members. And the Death Eaters know where my family lives and works -- they know where *I* live and work too obviously, but I'm less worried about that -- and... I don't know. They're doing pretty horrible things to people they think are Order members, and I'd never forgive myself if they went and burnt down the pub or something. It's been in the family three generations. I don't think there'd be any rebuilding if that happens.
But. Yeah. I'm kind of miserable. Half the people making it worth it are gone already. What if they quit, all of them, and I'm the only one left? I definitely won't be able to quit then, it'll be beyond obvious.
I guess mostly I don't know what to do. All options kind of suck. I can't believe I ever thought I could ~make a difference~ as a hitwizard. How dumb is that?