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luke_lawliet (luke_lawliet) wrote in chaosunraveled,
@ 2008-05-25 15:40:00

Current mood:	anxious
Entry tags:	finished thread, l, light, rating: pg-13

Rendezvous
Who: Light and L [finished]
Where: The forest near Asgard
When: When L has recovered sufficiently in body and mind, although his judgement, evidently, may still be impaired. Let's hope that Light means what he's been saying about feeling bad.
Rating: PG-13, for possible mentions of prior events and occurrences. Oh, and... recently, a bit of touch-you-touch-me that might not be for everyone.
Warnings: None, as of yet. Possibly some harsh language. And as of now, L is discovering that his impulse control is shot, and mixed with a healthy dose of Stockholm Syndrome.
Summary: L and Light see each other again, perhaps sooner after their last encounter than is advisable. Both are re-thinking their manipulative tactics (in different ways), and one is more than willing to take advantage of the other's post-encounter guilt. It is implied that L has left Asgard without informing anyone, fearing detection and intervention. He plans to either die or return unharmed, so sees no point in worrying anyone.

L leaned heavily against a tree, sighing and running a hand along his bruised jawbone. FUBAR, indeed, although in his book, that could mean "Fucked Up But All Right." He was lucid, and going to take advantage of that clarity to get some things straight with the man who did this to him.

He was not risking being caught off-guard, and had taken precautions to avoid falling unconscious. He knew that taking stimulant drugs was foolish and dangerous, but his accelerated heart and heightened awareness were well worth it. He suspected that his tolerance was so good because Watari had provided him with crack cocaine on occasion, back when difficult cases had demanded inhumanly long hours of concentration and wakefulness, but that was neither here nor there.

Light Yagami was coming. With or without a gun, L believed that he was prepared. He knew Light Yagami, even after what he'd been through, well enough to know that he felt guilty enough to at least provide L with some warning before brandishing a long-range weapon. A steak knife, deftly snatched from Asgard's kitchen, was tied securely to L's thigh, and an ingenious but iffy bomb was ready and waiting, buried just a few feet away from L, to detonate anything nearby if he merely spoke the code, a short but intricate equation of prime numbers, aloud.

He was prepared. Maybe too well... but Light would either behave civilly or go up in a mushroom cloud visible from both Asgard and Niflheim. L couldn't believe that he was pulling such a Mello... using a bomb, for crying out loud... but insanity could drive a person to do strange, strange things.

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yagami_light
2008-05-26 01:09 am UTC (link)

Light had received the message almost as soon as it was sent. He was keeping a constant watch..as was to be expected, and got up from his seat in his room, grabbing the vial and safety pin of poison from before, and stuffing it into a jacket that he pulled on over himself.

He made his way out of Niflheim, hopefully, without detection, and quietly made his way into the forest, navigating himself from his past experiences.

Same place as before..Same tree.

He found it soon enough, and almost hesitated to walk out into L's sight once the white shirt came into view. He looked much more like himself now..and that almost calmed Light down more than it probably should have.

He slowly, and cautiously, made his way out of the plants and toward L. He didn't say anything, and only stood still, staring at him with an unreadable expression, but nothing like before....more...how could you say it?

Almost...broken.

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-26 01:18 am UTC (link)

L regarded Light warily. The forest around them was eerily silent, without even a slight breeze to diffuse some of the tension. The young man's expression was so different from the last time L had seen him... or maybe too similar. As if L had hurt Light more than Light had hurt L.

L held up a note card, with awkwardly penned numbers written on it. 101. "Don't say this prime number," L warned quietly, black eyes glittering in his bruised and stinging face. "The resulting explosion would kill both of us. I believe that there are worse ways to die... and worse days... so I will not hesitate to voice the trigger should you draw your gun again." he held his arms out in front of him, palms out, as if indicating an imaginary wall. "This is the amount of distance I need. Invade this, and things go boom. In the words of Quentin Tarentino, I'm a 'mushroom cloud-laying motherfucker,' and I'm not afraid to set it off if I feel threatened in any way."

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	yagami_light 2008-05-26 01:22 am UTC (link)
	Light nodded, simple enough. "I do not plan to provoke you in any way...We should be fine in that aspect." He stayed in his place, unsure of what to say, about to open his mouth, but closing it again and looking away. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

luke_lawliet
2008-05-26 01:29 am UTC (link)

L lowered the note card slowly, narrowing his eyes. "We'll see, won't we?" he asked, turning and staring at a 90 degree angle away from Light. Or, maybe a 91 degree angle, since prime numbers agreed with him more than the conventional kind. "This changes things. This changes things more than they ever should have been changed, between us," he said in a low voice. "The things I've said and done have caused people... myself included... to believe that I've been driven mad. That my mind is broken. If that's the case... I'm not responsible for my actions." he took a stilted step towards Light, his eyes unblinking and unreadable. "What I do is no longer according to my will. I can kill you with a number... and might. I think that you are being uncharacteristically foolish, to meet me here... with the full knowledge that I am not myself, and perhaps never will be again."

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yagami_light
2008-05-26 06:15 am UTC (link)

Light was quiet, reaching into his jacket and slowly pulling out the vial and safety pin. "...Here....Do....do as you wish." He muttered slowly, holding the items out to him and looking down at his feet.

Those eyes...those eyes hurt him more than anything else right now...They burned him..hurt him...He couldn't stand to look at them...Not with the way they had been haunting his thoughts lately..his dreams....nightmares.

"...It's..my fault you aren't yourself anymore...and I wish I could change that....You don't know how much.." His words were soft..and a bit shaky, as was his body, his hand visibly unsteady as he held the vial and pin out to L.

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-27 08:30 am UTC (link)

L edged slightly closer, until he was just within reach of the items in Light's hand. He snatched them away from the other man, being careful not to prick his finger... though Light had thoughtfully closed the safety pin, apparently.

After a moment of staring patronizingly at Light's bowed form, L stepped towards him until exactly an arm's length was between them. No more, no less. It was enough space to either reach out and strangle Light, or make a hasty retreat in the opposite direction. "You're right. I don't know how much," he admitted. "To do something like that to another human being... even when I was at my most certain that you were Kira, I never would have guessed that you were capable of such monstrosities. I've been inside the most brutal rape and murder cases since I was very young, involving dismemberment and worse... but you made them all pale in comparison. Or maybe it just feels that way, to me..." L chewed his finger stormily for a moment. "Even Niflheim seems disgusted with you. Which you deserve... but to be an enemy among friends must be horrendous."

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yagami_light
2008-05-27 03:54 pm UTC (link)

"...I didn't even know I was capable of it either...I didn't think...That's not a good thing for me to do, you know...not think." He glanced at his eyes and immediately looked away, shivering. "..I..I feel like death messed with my mind more than I thought...More than I ever expected it to."

He thought back to his place after death. Thoughts fleeting and slowly fading, reducing to nothing...just as he was. He was there..but not..There was there...but not. He was slowly fading away and losing himself..just as he was losing his mind.

"I hope death was better to you than me..." He muttered.

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-27 06:52 pm UTC (link)

"It might have been... but my last waking vision was Kira's wickedly grinning face," L said hollowly. He tilted his head, watching Light closely... he thought that he was losing his mind? Cute.

"Hold still," L said quietly, stepping closer to Light despite his premeditated safety distance. He planted a soft, lingering kiss on Light's mouth, chaste, but cleverly manipulative. Light wanted this... wanted L to be a willing lover rather than a fractured victim.

He drew back, thoughtfully stroking Light's red tie with his thumb.

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yagami_light
2008-05-28 01:45 am UTC (link)

Light heart sped up to unimaginable speed. His eyes wide, his breath catching in his throat.

What...What..What the hell was that?!

He-He..No..No.....Don't do this..Don't...Not this..any torture but that...

He pulled away quickly once gaining control of his legs again, accidentally tripping and falling backwards into the grass, almost hitting his head on a tree. He couldn't find his voice, eyes still wide, still shocked and scared and-and-

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 02:01 am UTC (link)

L laughed; he couldn't help it. This was ridiculous... he couldn't rationalize that, of course, any more than Light could... but the result, this cowering and terrified Light, was totally worth it. He twisted the corner of his mouth in a mocking grin. "What's the matter, Light? Is it that bad, without the chains and handcuffs? Come on. You started this, Kira, and you owe me the opportunity to experiment a bit. Don't you think, Light?" he crouched, lowering his eye level so that he wasn't staring down at Light.

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	yagami_light 2008-05-28 02:19 am UTC (link)
	"Wh-Why do you...want to experiment? Why-Why-?" He couldn't form the words, his eyes glued to L's own..and that was a terror in and of itself. ((OOC:Replies will prob. be short til I get my hw donee, can't be caught online. Sorry) (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 02:30 am UTC (link)

L tilted his head. "Do I need a reason? I have a desire to know things, Light... much like yourself... even now. If you break something, you should take responsibility for it. That's just sense, Yagami Light." he edged slightly closer. "That kiss wasn't bad for a first try... I want to do it again. Move, and I say the magic number," he warned, winking. It was a terrifyingly flippant gesture, for what he was threatening.

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	yagami_light 2008-05-28 02:35 am UTC (link)
	Light wanted to protest, no matter how much part of him wanted this, the other part of him was terrified. He remained still, not daring to move, hardly even daring to breath. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 02:44 am UTC (link)

L approached him slowly, keeping his hand near the knife concealed at his thigh just in case Light abandoned reason and tried to pull something despite the fact that a very powerful bomb was buried beneath them. Two could play at this game... but it was amazing, how what Light had claimed to want seemed to terrify him so. It drove L's senses nearly to a fever pitch.

The second kiss was deeper, obstinately closed-mouthed, and clumsy at first, but through exploration, L was learning how to maneuver skillfully around this unfamiliar terrain. Unconsciously, his hand covered the back of Light's neck, creating a sensation that could be either claustrophobic or secure for Light. L wondered, but didn't ask. He had other things on his mind.

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yagami_light
2008-05-28 03:02 am UTC (link)

Something..Something he wanted so very deeply...Yet feared just as much.

It felt..nice...and almost comforting, in it's own way.

But...with the small touches that sent shivers up his spine, the electric feeling of those lips across his...He couldn't help but think...Had the poison truly ruined L's mind more than intended? Had he truly gone insane from their encounter? What victim would do this to their rapist willingly?

Light felt confused, scared, yet...good. The feeling of L willingly doing this was....was good.

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 03:12 am UTC (link)

L paused for a moment to breathe, tilting Light's neck forward until their foreheads touched. "You're wondering if I'm crazy... I can tell..." he traced an index finger down Light's spine; with L, everything was subtlety and precision, detail and attention to the little things. It had always been this way, and was now, more than ever. "Maybe I am crazy... unhinged, deranged... call it what you like. At any rate, I think that my impulse control is shot, and mixed with a healthy dose of Stockholm Syndrome." he licked a trace of sweat from Light's face, the tip of his tongue scarcely grazing the other man's skin.

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	yagami_light 2008-05-28 03:16 am UTC (link)
	Light gasped softly, closing his eyes. "You're..making little sense....Why are you doing this exactly?" He asked after finally finding his voice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	luke_lawliet 2008-05-28 03:23 am UTC (link)
	"That's a stupid question. You always did talk too much," L said, rolling his eyes. He grasped Light's hands, which contrasted starkly with his own brutalized ones, and placed them against his bony hips. "Less talking, more doing what I want." he nuzzled Light's neck with his face, playing with a strand of auburn hair. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

yagami_light
2008-05-28 03:29 am UTC (link)

He had to avert his eyes upon sight of his hands. His heart was beating harshly, and his hands on that cotton of his shirt felt warmer than they should.

L was...L...

"L...I.." he lost his words again, looking over at the raven hair of his former victim...Victim....L made no sense..He...He...

Unless he was simply teasing him. Torturing him with information he had found out...But..Light had put as much protection around that entry as he could. Surely L couldn't have-

But he could....Oh God, why did Light have to be so stupid recently?! This whole event had fucked up his thinking so badly that he couldn't even find his common sense!

His breathing increased in speed, his eyes wide again in fear.

Please....Please stop.

Not like this...Not...

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 03:37 am UTC (link)

"You what?" L asked, tugging sharply at the strand of hair. "I want to know, Light. You said that you loved me... why, I can't imagine... but it's hysterical, at any rate. If that wasn't some kind of strange, senseless lie... why can't you prove it? Or am I boring, now that you've subjected me to all that you can muster?" he pouted, glaring darkly at Light through his bangs. "You brought this on yourself. If my hands make you sick... if you can't look at my face or my body without feeling nauseous, Light, what kind of man are you?" His eyes glinted maliciously, the darkest point on his bruised and battered face.

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yagami_light
2008-05-28 03:41 am UTC (link)

"..It...It hurts to look at you because of what I've done...Not because of you...And...I don't know how to prove it...I...I don't know how to do so after what I did....How..." He exhaled sharply. "..L..." He stared into those eyes with his own irises filled with sadness and regret. "...All I can think to do is tell you I'm sorry...and let you kill me whenever you feel like doing so..."

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 03:45 am UTC (link)

"Mm. You're no fun," L sighed, frowning childishly. "You said you're sorry. I said that I forgive you. Inhuman though that was, it wasn't the first time that happened to me, and I can get over it. I suggest you do the same, Yagami Light. If you're prejudiced because it's hard to look pretty after being pistol whipped across the face, suck it up, because this is as good as you'll get for awhile." He kissed Light again, biting his lip slightly.

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yagami_light
2008-05-28 03:50 am UTC (link)

"It's..not that you're not beautiful..It's that I still feel guilty...and the wounds are reminders of my source of guilt." Light replied softly. "....And..if you truly forgive me...will you let me move?....Not to hurt you....but to show you how I feel." He swallowed thickly, the tension in the air swallowing them whole. "..I..I can understand if you won't...I just....want to know."

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luke_lawliet
2008-05-28 06:08 pm UTC (link)

L regarded him seriously for a moment before tilting his head, as if to give Light another kiss... but leaned away at the last second. "Let you move....? I'm not inebriated, Light... I remember what happened the last time. Maybe the next time we meet, I'll let you move your hands within less strict boundaries, but for now... this is what doesn't hurt." He stood, removing Light's hands from his hips. "But that's enough, for today. I'm going back to Asgard... I suggest that you make up a story of your own for Niflheim, which doesn't involve remorse or devastation, if you please."

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	yagami_light 2008-05-28 10:40 pm UTC (link)
	Light nodded softly, not moving just yet. "..Yes, of course...Just tell me whenever you'd like to meet again." He replied. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)