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. ([info]sharaf) wrote in [info]caeleste,
@ 2011-01-17 20:29:00

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Entry tags:adward sharaf, petra fortis

what they saw (petra)
She draped flowers around his neck.

It was difficult to tell that there'd been a fight. Someone had thrown down sawdust to clean up what little blood there was. He could see narrow choked lines of it. As though it had been pushed about by some of those flat brooms they used on marble and stone. As though. He knew it as well as he'd have known if he'd watched it happen. Then one of those pretty temple dedicates with the straw hair had come out, sponge and bucket in hand, for the work of scrubbing what did not sweep. No one wanted a temple and a tavern to have anything in common, did they? This worked so well in the tavern that it was bound to make its way to the temple. They were not bloodless things, either of them. They were the places where life happened.

One of the dedicates had swept by him, thin waist easily fitting into the crook of his arm as she slung a string of flowers around his neck and kissed both of his cheeks.

Well, festivals were liberal times, here. He could hardly scold her for being beautiful.

There were men carousing in groups of ten, twelve and more. All of them had flagons clutched firmly in hand. Pressing a thumb down on a switch lifted the lid and allowed you to drink. The better to keep the ale inside while you spilled from stall to stall or performance to performance. Most were loosely dressed. Open shirts of white and green and blue. No coats. Trousers that stopped at the knees. Soft shoes. A few wore masks, but it was not their way around these parts, unless they were into something truly interesting. Sharaf had met a traveling performer who refused to make love unless she wore a mask. He'd agreed, of course, because one did not say no to hips like that.

"Ho there, friend!"

Tattered brown coat, with a pair of holes and more than one scuff mark. Bleary, red-rimmed eyes. Musssed hair. He had the look of a pickpocket or a ne'er-do-well about him. Sharaf resolved that he was going to beat this man's face into the ground if any of his pockets felt lighter.

"I," Sharaf replies darkly. "Am not your friend."

"Nevertheless, perhaps you would like-"

"I would not."

He fended off the drunk with a gentle shove.

Horns were not popular instruments at this time of year, or in this part of Perava. They played string instruments. Many musicians took the dry air and the constant threat of brittle, breaking strings as a kind of challenge. Wax and oiled paper were most frequently used to keep them from experiencing any trouble. Beeswax in particular was greatly prized. He'd arrested a fellow for picking wax out of his ear and selling it as pure, after mixing it with a touch of honey. Incredible what worked and what did not. So there he was, listening to at least five different songs, and trying not to nurse the bruises that kept him walking at a slower pace. He should not have been about at all. He should have been resting.

Petra must still have been asleep.

It was a constant source of amazement for him, Petra's inability to let anything register with her. If she almost died, Petra was angry because someone thought ill of her. Possibly thought ill of her. There was nothing about her that shouted out her ability to be mature or understanding. And yet, for an instant last night, he'd remembered what it was that he saw in her. Stubborn and clever in her own way. Not wise but still knowledgeable. Not particularly kind but thoughtful in a way. Sharaf shook his damned fool head before he could give her another compliment she didn't deserve. Anyone had good qualities. He'd seen murdering psychopaths show concern for their mothers. It was something that most admired.

It was also rotten to its core.

All of which led him to his most important and also least easily answered question. Why was he still here? All of their leads had gone cold save talking to the son, but Sharaf thought he had a reasonable idea of what the son would say. If that was his only lead, would he investigate it? All this series of thoughts could do for him is reveal the depths of his hypocrisy. Often, as a young man, he'd dreamed of being able to arrest one of ob's new family members for something. Anything. A crime, no matter how meaningless it was. Yet when the suspected was someone whose bed he had shared, and whose company he still enjoyed? Now he wanted no part of it.

What would Rath say, if he could see Sharaf now?

So as the sun was coming up, and orange light was slipping through the high bars of the place, Sharaf returned with his coat half-undone and no shirt underneath. Over one arm, tucked into the crook of his elbow and hanging at his side, was a wicker basket loaded with fruit. You could not often find apples. He'd bought two, despite the expense, because if he'd been forced to share one with Petra he might have grown quite cross. What he found was an unnatural quiet. Yet Petra was still there, staring at nothing and waiting with a pensive face.

"Bad dream?" Sharaf asked glibly, snatching one of the apples from his basket. "Or maybe you're trying to figure out why I was in all of them?"



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[info]alchimia
2011-01-19 12:11 am UTC (link)
Petra honestly did not know what she was supposed to do with all of the information she had now. Share it? Keep it? Abandon her plans to save Adward whom admittedly still meant something to her though she could not pin down exactly why she enjoyed his company as much as she did. Continue on and risk his life and her life? If she told him the truth, all of it, that someone had come and warned her, that someone had come and told her that she was selfish and horrible in more words and fewer truths. Petra did not know, and she did not want to talk to anyone at all now. Now that she felt so conflicted. She hardly ever felt so conflicted. Being selfish was easier for her because she hardly had anyone to care for besides herself. She cared about her father, but this was not a threat to his life. Of course she cared about him as much as she disliked him.

If her mother were alive perhaps Petra would feel differently. One of her friends had often pointed out that the change had happened then. But Petra was more concerned about the fact that she didn't know what to do now. Now she was so conflicted she was angry. So here she was sitting there, staring at nothing when he entered. Why was she considering abandoning her work for him? He didn't even like her. He liked to poke fun at her, and bad mouth her and ignore her for years on end. And yet she still wore the ring he'd given her. Still she wanted him to live rather than die.

"No." Her voice was quiet. "No, someone came to see me." She still wasn't looking at him. Looking at him, looking him right in the eye, would be difficult. She was trying to decide what really mattered. The greater good, which was what she wanted all along, or their lives. Or was it even the greater good at all. Was she so selfish that she didn't care about the consequences? She didn't want to think so poorly of herself. Petra thought she was brilliant. Everything she touched, well, most of what she touched was gold. She was a brilliant aspiring alchemist with a future ahead of her.

But here she was. Doubting her own thoughts.

Go after her things and risk him. Risk herself. Leave her things behind and be riddled with questions. And what about Wajih? He was dead now because of this. Dead, his son without a father and it was all..

It was all their fault. Or was it all hers?

Petra didn't mean to look sad, but she did just then.

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[info]sharaf
2011-01-20 04:41 am UTC (link)
"In your dreams?" he asked, still feeling glib. "It must have been important, if they made the trip."

Apple juice was running down his chin before he realized that she'd said nothing since he'd taken a bite. There was always something to love about apples. Even on the hottest day, they felt cool to every bite. They were as crisp as could be - soft fruit bothered him to no end. They tasted like wet sunshine would have tasted. Not just his favorite fruit, but the best fruit. The basket he'd set on the ground. A sleeve dragged across his chin rough. Only when he was satisfied that the apple juice was gone did he resume chewing. She still wasn't saying anything. Looking at him without meeting his eyes. In his experience, when someone could not look you in the eye, they were feeling shame and guilt in equal measure.

Was she have second thoughts? And if so, about what?

"I was joking," he said around a mouthful of apple.

Petra was not one to feel shame or remorse. He'd witnessed personally and unforgettably as his former lover had berated a man five times her age for daring to suggest that she straighten her coat. It was not an order or even a cursory command from an older and more antagonistic alchemist. Just a suggestion before a ceremony. The fellow had his eyebrows singed off, and Sharaf was reasonably sure that his firstborn was going to feel the pain of that tongue lashing when he finally did come into the world. Sharaf wanted no part of that. She wasn't going to give him a tongue lashing, no matter how much he feared one. Her goal was something else. Perhaps he was about to receive a measure of truth.

Better not spoil it.

"Are you going to tell me what's on your mind?" he demanded.

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[info]alchimia
2011-01-20 08:51 am UTC (link)
She had to remember why she'd taken on this particular assignment. She was of course given the work by the the guild, which meant even if she abandoned her work that someone else would pick it up. Someone would meet the same end as Wajih as surely as the sun rose and fell day by day. Someone else would take the same steps, and come to the same conclusions. Oh she thought hers were more important than many if not all, but they would come to most of the same results. Perhaps more dangerous than her own. And what dreaded ending would befall them if she allowed this to continue? She could not even think about convincing an entire guild that it was too dangerous to continue their work. She didn't even believe, given the right precautions and the right amount of work, that it would be as dangerous as that strange man that hadn't bothered to give his name had alluded to. She knew the danger, she'd dealt with danger and important things before. But on a grand scale this could level one of their cities. Flood them faster than the desert could drink up the stuff.

For the minds of horrible people, maybe. To someone like Petra? She saw the potential for a greater society than the one they already had. No one running around the desert to get what they needed from the lands to the West. No more crossing the bothersome desert just to get something they could not grow here. It would be wonderful, of course, if it could be contained. No more grinding water from stones, no more wells that were too deep to measure just to get water in the old ways. It would be picturesque, this new society. Gardens would be everywhere, trees could be grown like they hadn't grown before. No more apples costing half of your arm for just one. She could smell the apple from her place and it was making her mouth water.

She wondered if that happened to Adward when he smelled one of those foul fire breathing peppers he enjoyed so much.

Hesitation marked her every action. Her eyes could only blinked slowly, her mouth barely opened before it shut again. Even her breathing had slowed down as if she was going to fall asleep again sitting up on the too hard cot. Her eyes could not find his, she couldn't bear to face him yet and now she had to. She had to either say the truth, or fail something. Fail that man? Prove him right? Prove him wrong? She shouldn't have cared but she did. And that was why Adward complicated things. She should not have cared about the man who did not care so much for her. An old feeling, one that she thought she was over, or forgotten. He wasn't the first person to leave her, and certainly wouldn't be the last. Or was it she that left him? She supposed the distance she'd put between them to work on her potions, devices, and other means to her life had been the thing to drive them apart.

Throw in the fact that she was selfish, that she didn't care for anyone but herself and that was the final nail in the coffin.

"A man came here." She began, hesitating with the words. Hesitating to tell him the truth? What if she told him too much and he was in even more danger than he already was. "While you were away. Before I was awake, he locked me in my cell and waited. When I woke up he was sitting right there." She looked over at the spot in which he'd been sitting when she woke up.

"He told me to stop seeking what I've lost. That I should return home, along with you, and abandon the project. I was surprised, to say the least, that he knew exactly what I was working on." She stood up, blood rushed back into her limbs. She had been sitting too long.

"I think you should go home. Go back to Qas Burus. You don't want to be here anyway. You can tell them whatever you like, that I simply misplaced what I was looking for. Or that I found what I was looking for here." He'd be safer without her. She somehow thought, no matter what the man had said, that she knew too much. Even if she stopped right now, she would still know enough and would be a danger to someone. She did not want to be a danger to Adward any longer.

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[info]sharaf
2011-01-25 02:07 am UTC (link)
He was immediately standing over the chair, peering down at it, as though it actually contained a person any longer. Predictably she had not gone near the thing after the fellow left. There were circles in the dust left behind by this chair. Two of them - the back legs of the thing - were far larger than the front pair. He'd leaned back. It was not a massively important piece of information, on its own. His head turned. A basket. Not his basket. Too low. Another chair. Too far away. The bars on the cell. Too far away. A box, each slat nailed in perfectly. That was the thing, and the chair was turned away from it at just the right angle.

Sharaf sniffed loudly.

"I was surprised, to say the least," Petra was still talking. "That he knew exactly what I was working on."

His hands stretched out. From box to chair was about an average distance. So this man was not of great height - perhaps five feet and nine, five feet and ten. No more than that. Interesting that someone that small could put Petra so out of sorts. He tried to imagine the boldness and confidence of a man who could wait until the only threat was gone away, then go and intimidate the lady of the group. It was a strange mix of fear, caution, wisdom and brass balls. Sharaf thought it took a special sort of criminal to come in and do this sort of thing. Especially to a friend of his.

Another bite of the apple.

"I think you should go home. Go back to Qas Burus. You don't want to be here anyway. You can tell them whatever you like. That I simply misplaced what I was looking for. Or that I found what I was looking for here."

The fellow really had gotten to her. What did he say? What was she working on? It irritated Sharaf when it should not have, that some stranger knew what Petra was working on while Sharaf did not. That the same stranger could come here and threaten his life, and it was enough to change Petra's mind - but he could tell her that he loved her, once upon a time, and all that she would do was slam a door in his face. His eyes closed. There was a peace, somewhere, that he was searching and seeking to find. Someday. For now, his eyes opened again. The apple was almost forgotten in his hand.

"You act as though you invited me along for a picnic," Sharaf said quietly. "In reality, a theft was reported and a man was murdered. I'm here because I belong to an order, not because I'm chasing your legs around whatever city you're showing them off in. I was sent to do a job, and I'm going to do the job. If you're afraid, then you can go home."

It was the wrong thing to say. He was still angry. Terribly, terribly angry.

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[info]alchimia
2011-01-31 08:05 pm UTC (link)
Petra shot him a glare. She wasn't afraid for herself, well maybe a little. She didn't want to die, dying was a terrible thought. But what she was really afraid for was him. Whether or not Adward could take care of himself or if he was in some Order meant nothing. She was afraid for him and while she was cold and calculated normally, or if she really was terribly selfish, she still cared about him and his well being. Which was stupid of her because he certainly didn't care about her in that way. At least any longer. It probably had a lot to do with her, but even her father understood that she cared in a certain way, and she was the way she was because of everything. Well. It didn't matter now did it. She could find a way of doing this without Adward, couldn't she? There was only so much she could do, and the fact that he'd mentioned chasing her legs around just infuriated her.

Of course he wasn't here for that. She wasn't stupid.

"I'm trying to tell you is that I got you in over your head. That I don't want you to die and you're going to be stubborn about that? You're going to be an asshole to me, right now?"

Petra got off her bunk. If only she could remember all those formulas without the damned notebooks. Not that she was sure she wanted to work on any of it now. A man was dead, and while he hadn't been the best man in the entire world he was still a man and that wasn't fair. And the man's son was going to be in prison for life, likely. However long or short that would be. Which was terrible. Admittedly, less terrible than the thought of Adward dying because of her.

"Do you want to know what I was working on then, Adward? So you know what you're getting yourself into you idiot? Because I'll tell you. I'll tell you everything, or is it better that you figure it out yourself so for once you look smart? Believe me it'd take more to make someone like you look smart. Can't even fix a healing salve on your own and they're the most basic of things. Exploded one, I heard. How do you make mint explode, Adward?" She was being vicious.

Mostly because it hurt, that he didn't believe her when she said to go.

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[info]sharaf
2011-02-04 05:07 am UTC (link)
She was doing precisely what he shouldn't let himself do. He'd overcompensated, hadn't he? Because he could feel the anger and the bile rising in his gut. Hard enough to listen to her rant in this way when he knew that she was little more than a frail girl herself. Even harder when he knew for a fact that he was not in over his head. He'd never been in over his head. The time he lost to ten... the times he lost to ten... they'd all been gifted with the same training as him. Sharaf wasn't above knocking someone's teeth out for a good time, any more than he was above showing off, but there was nobody walking this earth who had the same training as the ten. Rath, that son of a bitch, with his crooked eye sockets.

The universe was crooked. It wasn't just Rath.

"That bluster isn't bad."

She was scared. Scared out of her mind. Something he'd said to her... something he'd threatened to do to her? She wasn't going to tell him, was she? All of that nonsense about saying what she was working on. All of it just a big lie, something she'd said to him so that he'd be forced to... but then why would she...? Something about this was personal, something about it was business. With more personal and business mixed in. They didn't have time for games if they were going to catch the assholes that did this. Asshole that did this. Whatever. Sharaf suddenly lost his patience for her nonsense.

He couldn't let it show.

"You won't convince me just by being afraid," Sharaf finally said grimly. "I'm not leaving because it's my duty to stay. If you can't leave personal feelings out of this, you're the one who ought to go home, Petra. You don't know what qualifies as over my head and you don't know a damned thing about how to work something like this. Think instead of shouting!"

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[info]alchimia
2011-02-09 02:48 am UTC (link)
There were thousands of things she could have slung into his face, words and hands, and potions ingredients, anything that might have made him leave her right here. He wouldn't be able to figure out where to go without her help, would he? But he was supposed to be some expert tracker. What she knew of him was that he liked to show off, and he liked to think he was better than everyone, herself included. If she was selfish, then so was he. And he wasn't really listening to what she was saying to him. She wasn't afraid for herself, though she didn't like the idea of dying, and ye it sort of made her skin crawl and the hair on her neck stand on end, but what she was really afraid of, was being the reason he died. Afraid for him.

Which made this complicated in all the worst ways. There was a reason she was clinical and calculated. A reason she preferred numbers over friendships. Glass jars filled with potions ingredients rather than dinner with her father. Because relationships complicated everyone. It made you think differently, it made you react differently, and it made it hard to consider something without factoring in the person to whom you felt something towards. Which made this very difficult for her. So much so she was yelling at him. To be fair, he was yelling at her too, but that didn't make anything right.

It didn't even come close.

"I don't know anything."

She said flatly. Dropping back onto the bunk, she crossed her legs and looked anywhere but him. He'd done enough, hadn't he, and if she told him exactly what she was working on he'd probably call her crazy. He'd probably be worse than that man she'd never seen before. She didn't need another person calling her selfish, and she certainly didn't need someone telling her that if she couldn't take her personal feelings out of something, because she already knew that. She already knew she shouldn't have been complicated by his presence. He shouldn't have meant anything to her at this point. It should have just been business.

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[info]sharaf
2011-02-10 07:14 pm UTC (link)
She'd done this before. When they were deep in an argument, and he said something that hurt her or upset her, she'd shut down. It became the parade of the ice queens, then, all of them passing by in a row and revealing nothing with their faces of ice and their hearts of stone. She was the leader of that particular parade. Sharaf thought maybe time would have fixed that, but... he couldn't tell if she really was different or not. If this was something more than petty anger on her part. Certainly it wasn't something he was going to discover just by standing here. She was turning away from him. He couldn't see anything but those legs.

"I think I said you were specifically ignorant."

She didn't laugh. Sharaf didn't blame her. It wasn't funny. He'd been many things in his day. Arrogant, and selfish, and even cruel when it suited him. This wasn't the sort of thing that he would have wished upon her. Strange people visiting her, and her trying to send him away, because she actually felt something other than pride in herself. She made herself alone far more than others simply left her alone. The worst damned thing was, she couldn't see it - or didn't want to, afraid of what it would mean.

"You can live a long time afraid, but you aren't really living," Sharaf finally grimaced his way through the thing he should not say. "I'm not one for running away, no matter what the odds are. And I won't let anyone scare me into doing something I didn't plan on in the first place. You can be scared if you want, but if you can't deal with it, you can go back to Qas Burus and I'll find my own way."

At the end of it all, he didn't want her hurt. He also didn't want to die because she was afraid. There were a lot of great ways to make it through life unscathed. Taking someone who was afraid of dying and failure along with you, then counting on them to guard your back and light your way, wasn't one of them. Sharaf might have considered it in his younger and more foolish years. There was a great deal that could go wrong with it. She'd have to pick. He sure as hell wasn't going to do it for her.

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[info]alchimia
2011-02-18 06:09 am UTC (link)
Petra didn't want to tell him anything. It was a defense mechanism. Hide her feelings away. Button up. Get back to work. Destroy a hundred experiments, do a hundred more, and lock herself away for weeks at a time. leaving only to get food, or something she needed for her work. Hardly letting the sunshine hit her skin in the process. leaving at night, or in the earliest hours of the morning to fetch what was needed and returning. Not seeing anyone. Not talking to anyone. That's what she wanted to do because all of this hurt her. All of this begged for her anger, malice, and her ability to shut people out at the drop of a hat.

It begged for it. But Adward was as stubborn and as ignorant as she was when it came to each other. He would walk blindly into this to prove something. He would call her ignorant because he refused to give up the mantle he placed himself on. Just like her. So much like her it was both off putting as it was refreshing. It was one of the many reasons why she'd enjoyed his company for so long. Longer than the others. She tolerated his childishness only because he'd been able to tolerate her own. But this, this was different. He didn't understand.

"I'm not afraid for me, Adward. I'm afraid for you." She said quietly, as if it was taking all of her energy and focus in order to drag the words out. It wasn't far from the truth, at least. It was taking a lot to speak to him in such a way. Not that she was ever indirect, but it betrayed weakness. A weakness she didn't like exposing. "I don't want to see you hurt. And if this man is capable of not only figuring out everything I've worked on in secret in my workshop, he and whoever he works for or with also dealt with Wajih, and he was capable of dangerous things in his own right. Maybe more so than I am. But think about it. If he could figure me out, and what I was doing and try to undo it, then he has to be more instructed, or more learned than I am." Petra slid her fingers together, lacing them in her lap.

"Its not that I do not think you're capable of a great many things. But I do not think this is something you should tangle yourself in any more than you already are. I'm a danger to us both, but I'm more worried and more frightened for you. Of course I'm afraid. And you should be too."

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[info]sharaf
2011-02-18 06:33 am UTC (link)
She was always like this when she got upset. If she could have walked back to her rooms, she would have, carrying every beaker and vial and potion she thought she'd need for a month. She would eat infrequently, bathe even less, and a month later would look as though she'd had either the best or worst time in her life. Sharaf always relished the days when she came up for air. She was ravenous then, for food and for drink and for... other things. But it was as though she did a month's living and more in the span of two days. Then it was back to a room, pitch-black but full of light and purpose all the same, where she could continue working on making this world a better place to live in. Sharaf didn't despise her for her noble intentions. He despised her, the tracker thought, because those noble intentions wound up ruining everything else in her life.

If he had to choose, which would he pick? His oath, or a good time?

Hadn't he already chosen? Wasn't that why he was here?

"Did it ever occur to you that he might have gleaned something of what you were doing when he broke into your workshop?" Sharaf was growing belligerent, and he didn't care. "That your nigh-indecipherable notes were actually not as foolproof as you thought? Or maybe, just maybe, you're so worried for me that you don't know a good head game when you see it? What does he gain by coming here and trying to scare the wits out of you, if we're not getting closer and we're not a threat to him? What does he gain from showing his face that he doesn't gain from just having us killed? If he's as powerful as you say, why would he bother leaving us alive? Obviously he cares, or he wouldn't have come. For the rest, I have no idea, but-"

Sharaf interrupted himself with a sudden bark of laughter. They were arguing like children, but Petra was showing her relative inexperience in this area. You played games when you couldn't make a stronger move. Sharaf had talked groups of twenty armed men out of killing him. They might have and they might not have succeeded with a fight. Yet he convinced them that doing so would be utter folly by pretending a great many things, things there was no way to check in the moment. Sharaf didn't know for sure - you couldn't, not really - but he was reasonably certain it was just more of these head games. More of the nonsense that he'd used against that group of twenty.

She couldn't see it. Or she didn't believe it.

"You're making me want to sneak off in the middle of the night," Sharaf finally interrupted himself, with a hard stare and a wry twist of the lips. "You don't know where I'm going next, and you definitely don't know how to get there. You'd just be stuck here until you could get a tracker to take you back to Qas Burus. I can make sure that's the only place they'll go."

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[info]alchimia
2011-02-18 06:58 am UTC (link)
"Then sneak off in the middle of the night!" Petra snapped at him.

It was obvious now that she was at the end of her rope when it came to him. Whether or not he was right didn't matter to her. She didn't believe that someone would attempt to play games with her if they really knew what she was capable of. Alchemists could do horrible and wonderful things with the same stone, with a pinch of this or a jar of sand. Great and terrible things. Petra knew that anyone who had been checking in on her would have discovered that. If he could discover just how selfish she was, which wasn't something everyone saw in her, then he'd also have found her determination, and her capability for terrible things. Of course she chose not to use them. Of course she'd only ever killed a man once. But that didn't mean she was incapable of doing such a thing again. She had not wept when she'd killed that man. She did not laugh, but she did not weep.

He had deserved what came to him. And she would never wish that away, take it back, or apologize for it. Even if a grieving widow showed up at her door with two thin children and a dying dog. No, she had killed him because that's what the situation called for. Maybe not everyone knew that about her, it was obscure and buried away somewhere. But it had happened and she was capable of doing the same should the situation call for it. There was no reason to play head games with her, she thought the game, of course, was thinking she'd either return home, or go where he'd said to go should she want to work on something or find answers.

Both of which certainly meant death. The man had no qualms ordering the death of Wajih. Perhaps he wished to see which path she'd take. Forward, or backwards.

She didn't want another person trying to dictate how she should live her life.

Perhaps the only move then, was sideways.

"But you won't know where to go unless I tell you what he told me and where he told me I could go." Petra crossed her arms and stared at him hard. His laughter was unappreciated. As was his outburst. She was tired of being manipulated and hurt by words today.

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[info]sharaf
2011-02-18 06:33 pm UTC (link)
"Why would he..."

Sharf's laughter died first. He was staring hard at her, mouth slightly open, eyes beginning to narrow as surprise became suspicion. He'd told her where to go? Why would someone threaten her life, refuse to identify himself, and then tell her where she could go? Something odd had happened. Something that Petra wasn't saying. Maybe she just didn't want to - terror was a real possibility, but he didn't buy it, unless she was telling the truth about being afraid for him - but he thought it was more likely that he wouldn't understand her motivations. She was as much a liability as the bastard who'd come and talked to her. He told her where to go! And she didn't say a damned thing! He was going to comb the countryside looking for anyone who might help him, and she knew!

He was not going to lose his temper.

"So why didn't you..."

Sharaf rocketed to his feet. A quick turn, and his foot slapped into his former seat - wood shattered against iron bars with a terrific ringing sound. Crashing boots meant the old codger who ran this chapter house was coming. Sharaf was tired of being manipulated by her - strung along like some idiot who couldn't decide a single damned thing for himself. She was... he was... Sharaf stood staring at the wreckage of the seat. His head turned to take in the old man, with his running and his insanely pale face.

"What the bloody hell-"

"Get out of here!" Sharaf roared at the fellow.

There he stood, seething, while presumably Petra felt the same sort of rage. It wasn't something that Sharaf was proud of. It also wasn't something he could change. The old man was gone. What was left was a simple choice.

"You know where to go, and I'm the only one who's going to take you there," and each word was a driven nail. "I guess that means we're stuck with each other. Princess Petra. I'm not going home, and you aren't going anywhere unless I'm going with you."

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[info]alchimia
2011-03-10 07:08 pm UTC (link)
Petra grimaced and looked away when Sharaf destroyed the seat he'd been in not a moment before. He was furious and it was her fault that he was furious. This wasn't what she wanted to accomplish at all. More of the same, she had a way of making him terribly mad. It couldn't be helped now, and she was still mad at him. Upset that he thought so poorly of her, just like that man had. They were only different in a few ways, different manners, but the end was the same. They both thought she was selfish, and it hurt more that Sharaf thought so little of her now. He'd once told her that he loved her, Petra was all to used to the phrase changing into 'who could ever love someone like you?' Whether it was in her head, or actually spoken didn't matter.

Things like love didn't last in the way that advancements, mathematics, potions and alchemy would.

There were few things that lasted forever, and the only thing that came directly to her mind was stone. Stone didn't evaporate, lost interest, or get destroyed. When it was broken over and over through the passage of time it changed shape, until it eventually became sand. Sand could be melted to make glass, or could be pressed together to make another stone. At least, as far as Petra could consider. There could be a time when the world was destroyed, in such a way that nothing existed. It seemed too far off to calculate. And it didn't even matter a little bit to either of them right now.

Their friendship, or whatever one would call it now, was not like a stone unless it was a mountain of it. Unmovable. Stubborn.

"You really leave me no choice." Petra said with an air of hostility in her voice. As if she was going to leap from the bed and do something to stop him from joining her. When she moved it as a slow thing instead of that threat. She didn't want to leave him behind because she was afraid even more for him now. He knew too much, or could be seen to know too much. If someone really knew about her, all about her, then they'd know about him. They might assume that she would divulge something to him. Maybe not all of it, but something. He'd also seen this much of it, and she'd told him enough to have something to go on. So he was at risk. If he was close she could keep not only an eye on him, but an eye out for someone coming after him.

Selfishly, she wanted him to be just as worried about her as she was about him. There was nothing to be done for that.

She was looking at him, and trying to decide if it was worth the risk at all. Not only for him, but for her. They could go home and wait for someone to try and kill them there. Home advantage he might have said. They'd know their surroundings and where to go, where not to go , and how to escape. But the man hadn't said Qas Burus. He'd said..

She picked one of the apples out of the basket he'd set down earlier.

"I'll tell you where we're going once we leave the city. I'm being watched, either way, so it's best that we get out somewhere where we can tell a little better if we're being followed or listened to. Not to mention you can't leave me behind out in the desert because you're afraid I'll starve to death or die of dehydration. Walking in circles all alone."

She bit into the apple then, mostly to get rid of that bitter taste that had filled her mouth.

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