There was no way Juno's heart was going to stop racing any time soon, and she might not stop trembling, but when Cecilia made her look into her eyes, Juno snapped out of the sheer panic. She knew this would happen eventually, she had been training to defend herself, to breathe, to not be paralyzed by fear. She'd had help from everyone in different ways. And yes, she was scared - terrified! - but that was what They wanted. And what Simms would fucking love to see.
"No." She murmured to Cecilia, hands curling into fists. "If he touches me I will kill him. I knew this would happen, I knew, I was waiting. I thought it'd happen differently but fuck if I'm gonna give him what he wants and be a sobby trembling paralyzed mess when he comes for me."
She still held onto Cecilia's hand, and in that touch the nurse could feel her shaking. "It'll be better with you around though. But I'm gonna fuck him up. I'm gonna. I have to. 'Cause he's gonna get me alone and I can't rely on anyone else when he does."
Wiping stray forming tears from her eyes, Juno sniffled and raised her head to look at Kiley and Pam. "There was this tough scary ass bitch in my high school, she used to say that if you bite first the dogs won't ever come for you again. She fought pretty much everyone. Including me." Juno fiddled with her sleeve. "So yeah. Bite first. He won't be expecting. Fuckers like him never are."