Last night was a hard night for me. After having run theroxy (formerly verisi on both GJ and IJ) for more years than any normal community survived, it was time to lay it to rest. I didn't want the place to just die off into oblivion so I made the decision to officially close it last night. I can't express the love and gratitude I have for every single person who joined, loved, hated, laughed, enjoyed and made the community what it is. There was drama and difficulties like any normal place but I did everything I could do spending a good 80% of the time running it by myself.

I want nothing more than to write out every single username from every person who ever joined but I know I can't. But I do want you all to know how appreciative I am as a mod for all of the dedication. I'm not sure the length on this so cutting might be the best.


To my girls, the ones who made things amazing and fun and interactive essejbiel stkrist nclhouston tlrdaniel... words can't even begin to touch how I feel for each and every one of you. We all know drama happens and we were always ridiculously involved in it no matter how hard we tried to stay out. But the best memories I have of this place include you guys. Honestly, my heart is so full of joy and admiration for each of you as a writer and I can only wish you more luck than you'll ever know what to do with. I'm always going to be around in some form and each of you know how to get ahold of me if life ever puts us in the same place again. Just know that you guys made it worth it. You made the difficult decisions and the drama and all the hard work worth it for me.

Jen, our kids were always in some kind of difficulty no matter what but they had a chemistry about them that was undeniable. I miss having you and Jesse around all the time and I do hope things are going well for you. You're always in my heart. Kari, thank you. For being a fellow Hanson fan, for listening to me bitch, for giving me insight into myself as a writer and life in general. You're an amazing person and as much as I like to make fun of you, you're honestly one of the greatest people I've ever known. My love for you is overwhelming at times and I want you to know I'm always going to be within reach. Always. Sarah, the weird dynamic between our kids always made me laugh my fucking ass off. There's nothing better than a nice, healthy bromance especially when it creeped people out. It was all entirely worth it and I was heartbroken when you guys left, but I know you're never far. Plus I have your number and can stalk you at will. Thank you for allowing me to grow and develop and exercise my drama skills, haha. And Dani. Shit. I've been roleplaying for longer than I can remember and there's always that one storyline that will always and forever be front running in my head. That will be you forever. Storylines come and storylines go but the fact of the matter is who's behind them. Thank you for letting us take over your home this year and watch you pass out from drinking. And letting your dog hate us. And making those deep fried sugary things that made us all gain ten pounds. And spooning with me at night. And fighting off scary places to see The Runaways. And always making "you shut the fuck up" make me laugh. And for expensive phone bills and tired mornings after hours of talking. And for being so damn pretty and making us all feel insecure the moment we met you. And finally? For being apart of the best damn foursome of friends I could ever wish for. I love you. And I mean that from the bottom of my heart. You're always going to be part of me no matter what and I thank you for allowing me to be apart of you.

To ryngosling, asmart and chrissmag for opening verisi with me and spending so much time running a place that meant the world to us. I don't know where you guys are now but I do know I wouldn't be here without you. We spent so much time discussing things with this place sometimes all we wanted to do was throw in the towel but we did what we could to keep it going. You'll be glad to know this baby had a lot of love throughout the last few years and I appreciate you all more than you know.

sromiller, you know I couldn't make one of these without talking about you. I've never had a more dramatic line in my life. And I mean that in the best way possible. They were so fucking complicated, honestly, that I didn't even know what to do half the time but there was always an underlying appreciation for one another. My boy always defended her even until the very end and I guess it was because the ties between them were so strong. I'm not sure where you are now or if you'll even ever see this but just know that Sienna will always hold a special place in my heart. It's impossible to forget someone so dynamic, seriously. I hope you're doing well and I miss you!

To the Britney's, Cameron's, Olivia Wilde's and Scarlett's in my life, I don't remember all your usernames because there were so many but it's hard to find these girls that are willing to even interact with Justin and I've always managed to get the best ones. To sjohs I miss you terribly, come find me someday. To jbsprs for dealing with the fact that I never put up an away and am always not around when you IM me. I promise I don't ignore you on purpose and you're one of the few Britney's that I loved a lot. You guys are all seriously amazing.

greeneasherm / nothgeil, you've been around for a long time and I wish we hung out more than we have because hello, you're super close but I really have appreciated all the time I've had with you as Ashley and the relationship with Blake and Leighton. I miss those times a lot but I hope we can still at least stay in contact. And hey, Gravedigger's is coming up again, you should come! Sadly there will be no tour bus for you to go on. Well there is, but I don't think you'd want to go on that one... either way, let me know because I can get you tickets! Back on topic, I adore you always and forever.

To gesprt and kecl, what is there to even say about you freaks besides I LOVE YOU. You crazy bastards, you've made me laugh so much in my life it's insane but I wouldn't have it any other way. I miss you guys and I hope whatever crazy, insane storyline you have next is fun. Necrophilia cheating pregnant gay boy twink pornstars? I think you guys could do it. If you haven't already... ;)

alegaskar, you know everything I could ever want to say wouldn't matter in this small space. You have become a part of my heart in a way that no one would ever understand and for that I'm eternally grateful. You're seriously one of the best writers I've ever known and we always managed to find each other no matter where we are. We must be soulmates, obviously. Just remember how much I love and adore you and don't ever forget it. ♥


To those that have touched me in one way or another (whether inappropriately or not) as either me, Blake Lively or JoAnna Garcia...

For Justin: taliswift, llebk, mmoore, megansafox, bennymadden, maddjr, oliviawlde, haylwlms, oliwil, deirfyes, frgie

For Blake: willmbckett, jabar, kciwtsewde, tommilicevic, shanletodrumz, ivana_milicevic, mmanson, jaredlto

For JoAnna: benmichael, johollowaysh, miloventia, miloventim, jamesefranco, spencrjesse, jjlet

...I THANK YOU. From the bottom of my heart and the forever love I have in my soul. You are all truly more amazing than anyone could imagine. ♥