delivery to luz. [[ooc: The note was left on Luz's bed the morning after the final battle, with Mickey's half of the apple sitting on top of it. There was no indication that anybody had ever been there, although the items were freezing cold to the touch to anyone but Luz.]]
I won't ever be able to say how sorry I am, and I'm not of this world anymore so I couldn't tell you in person as myself even if I wanted to. Contrary to what has been said, I am very much alive. I'm just not part of the human world any more and at present, I am struggling to maintain the form that you know.
My mother was Izanami. She was a dead goddess who was once part of the Shinto pantheon, and I had never met her until a few months ago. When I met her, she tried to blackmail me into joining her, by threatening to kill 100 people every day that I disobeyed her. She killed my father and many people before him, and the thought of her killing all of my friends one by one was worse than me following her. So I lied. I hurt you in the alley that night so that she thought my allegiance was to her, not to you. Then when I had the opportunity, I killed her, in the hope that you could all have a happier life. I didn't do it for the glory, or for the good of the universe, I did it for my friends.
You deserved far better than what I did to you, but I was stupid. I thought that I would be able to come back and apologise. I can't do that, however much I want to. Besides, you'd call the police anyway. I never intended to kill you. I took care not to, contingencies were in place had Brady not arrived in time. I knew he would, though. He loves you, a lot, and I want you both to be so happy together.
Aphrodite gave me this when I completed a task for her. I want you to have it. I think you'll have more use for it than me. I can only hope that you have already obtained the other piece, but if not, I'm sure Brady will find it sooner or later.
Oh, and don't throw it away. It's not poisoned or going to stab you, I promise. I did what I needed to do. Even if we can't be friends again, know that you were one of the greatest friends I ever had, and I will always be watching for trouble heading your way. I love all of you, and please tell the others that.
Take care, and have a wonderful, long, happy life. I know you will.