Confessions of a 20-something gay man. Who: Shard, Recon When: Sunday, March 2nd, 2008 Where: Will and Troy's room What: confessions Status: complete Rating: PG-13
Will tossed his Wii remote down on his bed. The music taunted him and a large '8th place' covered his portion of the screen as his Mario Kart avatar bounced around. He wasn't feelin' it, and from the looks of it neither was his company.
Joe was so busy in the lab lately the two almost never got a chance to just hang out. Usually Mario Kart was enough to keep them entertained but Will had other things on his mind. So did Joe from the looks of it. From the moment he arrived the good doctor had seemed preoccupied. "7th place, Wario looks pissed. You ok?" Will asked kicking the side of Joe's leg.
Maintaining 1st place on Mario Kart was last thing on Joe's mind. Between the erotic encounter with Demon and the stress of around the clock lab work, he was simply exhausted, both physically and emotionally. He snapped out of it when he felt a kick.
"What? Oh yeah, I'm fine. Just a lot of stuff on my mind."
Will wasn't buying what Joe was selling. Will knew what was bothering him, Will still had no idea what to think about his relationship with Troy. The fact that he hadn't told anyone about it yet was part of the problem.
"Like what?" Will turned his attention back to his friend of fifteen years.
Josiah looked at the television and watched the computer play the game. He didn't make eye contact because he was afraid of his friend's reaction to what he was about to say. He sat up from his bean bag.
"Okay there is something specific, but you can't tell a soul."
"Not even Troy."
Joe sighed and ran his fingers through his hair, which is something he rarely did. He hated when his hair was unkept looking.
"You know Demon?"
"Freaky Brotherhood dude, shirt always open?" Will inquired.
"Yeah, well I guess I'm pretty freaky then too."
"Huh? What do you mean?" Shard said slightly puzzled.
"We had sex. Together. In an elevator," Joe cringed at the thought.
"Huh? Wait what?" Even more confused, Will took a double take between Joe and the TV screen. "Wh..." Will cut himself off, he really wasn't in any place to judge odd sexual acts. "What happened?"
"I was in the lab and I don't know how he got there, but Demon interrupted me. He was annoying me so I tried to leave, but once we got on the elevator it broke. I know what you're going to say, but it really did! Then he used his power to manipulate me into having sex with him."
He put his hands up in the air. "I am completely innocent!"
"Bullshit." Will was willing to believe Demon manipulated him but Joe had to have been a little into it.
Will launched himself off the bed. "I hate this crap, fucking Brotherhood. Not one of them has done a damned useful thing." Shard was pissed. He hadn't had a good experience with the lot of them.
"You know what we're going to do? We're going to find that little fucker... Wait we need Troy...Oh."
"Whoa wait! Nobody else is supposed to know, remember? If you go after him you'll only provoke him into saying something about it to the others. Let's just keep this on the down low. Agreed?"
Will suddenly forgot about his anger. "Shut up, you know I'm not going to tell anyone. Besides, I've got something I need to get off my chest." Will sighed a little. "I kinda started dating someone..."
"Why would that be something you had to 'get off your chest'?"
"It's Troy..." He said with his back turned to Recon, acting as if he was paying more to what was going on outside the window. God why was this so hard to talk about?
"Wait - Troy Troy? Our Troy?"
"Yes."
Josiah was shocked. "I had no idea you were...you know..."
Will turned on a dime to face Joe. "I'm not gay." Will held his tongue that sounded pretty harsh. "I mean, I don't know Joe. I'm really confused at the moment." Will paced the length of the room a few times. "I'm not into guys... not that that would be a bad thing." He didn't want to offend Joe. "We were just you know, 'helping each other'. Wow, that sounds really bad. But now I don't know, I think it's more than that."
Joe wanted to give an appropriate response, but he was so preoccupied with the thought of them together. He was completely oblivious to their friendship ever being anything more than that. There was dead air.
"Well, no matter how you feel, I'm here for you. I really don't know what to say."
"Yeah, I know..." Will stopped next to Joe and put his hand on his shoulder. "I really don't know what to think about it all. But Demon, that's crap. You were raped my friend." Will was glad to have told someone about Troy. He had no idea what was going to happen with his roommate or was going through Troy's mind. But at least now someone else knew about it. He could go to Joe if he needed anything.
Shard's anger was returning quickly. "No way he gets away with this shit."
"Well I wouldn't say I was raped. I mean...I did enjoy it. It was a guilty pleasure. I don't know, I'm confused too. I like Jean-Paul, but I don't feel like we're going anywhere. I don't know how he would react if he ever found out. Since when do our elevators break down?"
"I know; I'm surprised Ronan didn't bust in." Will let out a laugh. "Hey, Jean-Paul is Canadian. He's probably pretty understanding. Heh. But really, if he used his powers on you..."
"Yeah, I know." Joe was flattered that Will was being so protective, he didn't think he would be this angry. "Thanks," he said sincerely. He moved to change the subject. "So does Troy know how you feel?"
Will squirmed at the question. "Yeah, I think he's wooing me." Will said with a smile. "No, funny thing is it's shaping up to be the best relationship I've ever had. Which is freaky... 'cause I'm not gay." He wasn't sure why he had to restate that. "I don't know, this is all so freaky."
"You know being emotionally attracted to a guy doesn't make you gay." Joe thought that statement would make him feel better and more sure of himself. Besides their session the other day, Will didn't say anything about sex. Joe believed him, he wasn't gay, at least he didn't think so.
"I think we're all a little messed up right now. The world is ending and all we have is each other. Things will work out, don't worry."
"Yeah, I know. Hey, I bet Northstar's a pretty cool guy. He'd probably be just as upset as I am about it. No matter what you were feeling he shouldn't have used his powers, or even put you in that position." He sighed again. "Hey, food sound good to you?" Will's stomach had started growling during there conversation. They'd both gotten a lot out of their systems and he was ready for a change of scenery.
"I think Ramen Noodles are calling our names." Joe concurred.