Steve Rogers || Captain America (shield) wrote in wtnvgame,
Steve | Tony
Sometimes I feel like even trying to confront something like my conflicted feelings about grief and loss is a bit like being asked to organise a hoarder's junk room. There's no place to begin, no end in sight, and it just becomes too overwhelming to do anything.
And just shutting the door and pretending there's no mess behind it has worked well enough for this long. So the only time I open that door is to try to force something else into that room, you know?
I'm sure you know.
This - my analogy - isn't me trying to make excuses. I do [...] want to talk. I do want to talk to you. I'm not expecting to accomplish everything in one night, but I've got to start somewhere. And you do tend to understand me better than most people. So even when I don't always want to admit it to you or myself, you usually understand.
We've been friends for a long time. Sometimes better friends than other times but - I've missed when we were closer. And whenever I'm confronted with something that seems insurmountable, you're still probably the first person I think of talking or figuring it out with. It's vital that you know that.