The last two weeks were the happiest but they also had been torture for Severus. He was not able to just enjoy having his best friend from forever back, he had to realize that he didn't just have a little crush on her, he had fallen in love with her hard. He knew it was a stupid thing to do, he should have been able to stop himself from doing something like that, he was intelligent enough. But his intelligence had not helped him one bit, he knew he had fallen for Lily Evans and he knew what he wanted could never be.
He smiled a friendly smile at Lily, the kind not many got to see, "Sitting here and talk would be nice." He thought he was pretty good at hiding his real feelings for Lily and just show his friendship, all he had left to do was to convince himself that they were just friends. The moment Lily found the man of her dreams he wanted to be at a point that he believed that he didn't love her and then it would not feel like his heart was being ripped out or at least that was the theory he had. Believe he really didn't love her would mean that it would not hurt when she fell in love with someone that was not him, because no power on earth could make someone as perfect as Lily fall in love with someone like Severus Snape.