Julien swallowed but it didn't stop the sinking feeling in his stomach at hearing that. Friends with benefits? He didn't want that, he didn't like the way just thinking about it made him feel, but he should have realised he was never going to be suitable for anything else.
He wanted, suddenly, to go back to his favourite method of escape, but he'd run out of them, hadn't he. And now he had to face things, and he didn't think he could.
"You're my best mate too." he said, with almost a sigh. "And you're right, it was."