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Merlin Toke (oh_merling) wrote in wished,
@ 2010-10-03 23:57:00

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!2003:10, merlin toke, zacharias smith

Who: Zacharias & Merlin
When: Late evening
Where: Zach's place
What: Merlin is drunk; Zach is a gentleman
Rating: PG-13?

Zach had dismissed what Merlin had seen after his confusing attempts to, what was it he had said? 'Get to know' Merlin; it had made the vaguely paranoid former-Gryffindor tailspin into anger, at the fact that Zach wouldn't believe him and at the fact that he'd let himself be fooled into going out with Zach all those times.

He felt used and he supposed it was a good thing, practise for what he'd seen happening between them, something he was sure now would be some kind of attack; waiting for it was killing him.

He tried to keep his mind off it, kept himself busy with work, with tidying Eddie's house and, well, sleeping as that was about the only other thing he did when he wasn't working or housekeeping - nothing worked. The knowledge of what he'd seen hovered inside his head like the lingering of a bad dream and stalked him through the day. He was tense, snappy, losing control of the way his visions would take him over so that he mouthed them off before realising what he'd done at points. He took the weekend off and, although he hadn't planned it, got drunk.

This was how he ended up on Zach's balcony again, banging at the door and somehow managing not to fall backwards over the balcony himself - he was going to put an end to this hell of waiting.

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puffheir
2010-10-03 11:03 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias was having a rather quiet Sunday evening in. He was seated on the sofa in the living room of his rather extensive flat (he had the entire top floor of the building), flipping through a Quidditch magazine. It was one he had read before, but he was going back to glance over a few articles that he wanted to reread.

At first when he heard a soft thump on the balcony, he thought it was his owl, taking a rough and noisy landing. But when he didn't hear the familiar caw that usually accompanied his owl encountering a closed door (as it was when the air got chilly, and it was now fall), or anything else, Zacharias got up to investigate.

The magazine he tossed down on the coffee table as he got up and crossed the room. Pulling open the balcony door (other hand hovering near his wand) he couldn't be more surprised to find Merlin out there on the balcony. Really, he probably would have been less surprised if he'd found Santa Claus out there.

"Merlin?" he said, blinking. "What are you doing out on my balcony?"

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	oh_merling 2010-10-04 08:59 pm UTC (link)
	Even standing Merlin was unsteady, faltering back and forth on two feet. He seemed as surprised to see Zach for a moment as Zach was to see him but he rallied and took a boozy step forward. "Fuck me." He demanded the order made even more bizarre when he concluded by tripping over his own feet and falling onto his knees with a smack and a whimper. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

puffheir
2010-10-04 09:05 pm UTC (link)

Shit. Zacharias thought that Merlin was going to wobble backwards and pitch over the edge of the balcony. Which would be bad. "What?" he said, and he leaned down when Merlin fell to his knees. Looping an arm around him to drag him to his feet.

"You're joking," he said, and then he inhaled and realized it was something else entirely. "You're drunk," he said, making a bit of a face as he inhaled the scent of alcohol. Either Merlin was drunk, or he had taken a bath in a distillary.

"Come on. Inside with you."

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oh_merling
2010-10-05 09:49 pm UTC (link)

If he'd been even half as drunk as he was then, Merlin may have thought that Zach was making good on his, scratch that, was obeying his command and panicked - as it was, he barely knew Zach was even lifting him, his body divorced from the rest of him.

"No, you-!" he paused to let himself be walked into the room and then seemed to pick his thread back up, unable to squirm away from Zach even if he had realised he was being hefted along. "You, you with your hands and grin and you're f-fucking, fucking cock-" he snarled, surprisingly crisp of speech for someone that drunk. "-and your... grabby hands." he said again. Apparently that had stuck with him. "Fuck you, I'm tired of waiting and waiting and fff-fucking waiting... fuck me, fuck me and get it over with."

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puffheir
2010-10-05 09:53 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias looked bemused. "You don't really know anything about my cock," he pointed out. And he wasn't going to, not while he was piss loaded and barely able to stay on his feet, even when Zacharias's arm around him.

"Well you'll be waiting a lot longer. Possibly forever," he said dryly. "As I said before, I'm not going to fuck you. Certainly not when you're drunk. I don't know what sort of person you think I am - well, I can guess based on some of the things you've insinuated - but I'm not." He pulled Merlin into the bedroom - his bedroom, even though there were other rooms in the flat.

"Sit," he said, and hauled him over to the bed to make him.

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oh_merling
2010-10-06 08:41 pm UTC (link)

Merlin gave Zach a poisonous look and then shook his head - "It hurts." he all but growled to Zach's declaration of Merlin's ignorance. The agression ebbed as Merlin swayed again on his feet, things swirling before him and putting his balance off.

"I know what kind you are. Seen it. Know it. You're the..." he pointed at Zach, he thought, but was then being pushed down to sit on the bed, where he promptly collapsed down onto his back, legs hanging off the edge. Lying down on the comfy mattress had him blinking heavy and sleepy already, but there was something inside him that wouldn't give up. "Wow, you used the bed, di'n't see that."

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puffheir
2010-10-06 08:52 pm UTC (link)

"What hurts, my co- oh," Zacharias said and then snorted in an inelegant manner. "You're a virgin, Merlin. Sex hurts a bit the first time, yeah. That's sort of normal." Temporary pain that was replaced by pleasure - at least, if things were done properly!

"Would you rather I put you on the floor?" he asked dryly as he dropped down into a crouch and unlaced Merlin's shoes before he pulled them off, one at a time, and set them aside. "I thought the bed might be more comfortable." He stood up and helped Merlin scoot back on the bed so he could actually rest against the pillows.

"Let's get this off," he said, meaning Merlin's coat, and he moved drunken limbs to get it off, tossing it aside. And then tugged the blanket, wrestling it out from under the other, so he could pull it up and over him. "You need to sleep."

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oh_merling
2010-10-06 09:42 pm UTC (link)

Merlin shuddered at the pre-memory of the pain, but that might just have been the cold he felt more acutely as the booze jacket slid off him slowly. He waved a hand as Zach... disappeared, making little distressed sounds and twitching his feet as Zach removed his shoes.

He pushed out a little as Zach shifted him onto the pillows, an arm outstretched but useless, mostly just resting against Zach's shoulder. He groaned a protesting 'nnnn' as Zach removed his coat, turning to his side, arms crossed over his chest protectively and his knees drawing up a little as he yawned hugely, snuggling under the blanket Zach gave him despite himself. "Just f'ck me." he said, eyes closed because he lost the struggle to open them. "Please, 'n leave me 'lone... don't wanna fall for you. Y'll just hurt me." he mumbled.

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puffheir
2010-10-06 09:47 pm UTC (link)

"I'm not going to have sex with you when you're piss loaded," Zacharias said, and he even chuckled at the thought. He sat down on the edge of the bed and reached over, touching Merlin's hair, brushing it away from his forehead.

"I wouldn't worry about that. You're not going to fall for me, Merlin. You don't even like me, remember," he said, as if trying to cheer him up, or comfort him, or something else like that. "I've already said I'll leave you alone." Merlin was the one who had come over, but the alcohol likely had a lot to do with that.

"You need to sleep it off." He rose then, and left the bedroom, only to return a minute or so later, with a glass of water and a vial. "When you wake up, take this. It will make your hangover less severe, okay?"

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oh_merling
2010-10-07 10:22 pm UTC (link)

Merlin tried to grip hold of consciousness to listen to Zach but it was getting more and more difficult. The place spun like he had vertigo sometimes and he felt queasy until he felt cool fingers pushing at his hair; he murmured a little something and ever so slightly moved his head towards the touch despite himself.

"C'n't help it, weeee're meant." he said in response to that, revealing more than he had before, some kind of smutty version of star-crossed lovers. "You cn j'st f'ck me n lemmego..." he mumbled and then went limp; by the time Zach returned Merlin had all but blacked out on the bed, sleeping the very, very heavy sleep of the very, very inebriated.

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puffheir
2010-10-07 10:27 pm UTC (link)

"I'm not going to do that," Zacharias told him, quietly but firmly. "You can barely speak," he added, with a little smile. "You've lost your vowels." He went to get the water and the potion, and by the time he returned, Merlin was out like a light.

He smiled, and then turned the light off, leaving the room.

There were many rooms in Zacharias's flat, but he chose to sleep on the sofa. He was slightly concerned that Merlin might get up in the middle of the night and try to leave while still inebriated, and end up falling off the balcony. So he grabbed a pillow and a blanket and made a bed on the sofa, sprawling out to get some sleep until morning.

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oh_merling
2010-10-08 09:25 pm UTC (link)

Merlin slept like the dead and didn't dream; blank nights came far and few, but he was far too soused to even register any visions that may have tried to visit. He woke up with a start and a sharply indrawn breath, pushing himself up from the bed and regretting it as everything spun at an angle and the pain in his head was only outweighed by the heavy desperate need to throw up.

He gasped and tried to make his way out of the bed to the bathroom but found he didn't know where he was; he couldn't think straight enough to make his way out and he ended up collapsing to his knees on the floor beside the bed, throwing up all his confusion and all the alcohol he'd drunk last night onto the carpet.

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puffheir
2010-10-09 12:17 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias slept fairly well, all things considered, once he actually fell asleep. He ended up in a knot of blankets on the sofa, one arm draped over the side, and he slept, until morning.

It wasn't the sun or anything else that stirred him from sleep - it was the sound of stumbling and the sound of retching. Zacharias mumbled to himself as he awoke, taking a moment to recall why he was on the sofa and not in bed.

Merlin. Right.

Sitting up, he threw his legs over the side of the couch and got up, going into the bedroom, where the pungent scent of vomit greeted him. He glanced down where Merlin was huddled on the floor. "Oh good, you threw up on the floor," he said dryly, but without any malice. "Come on, you," he said then, going over to help Merlin up, and back to the bed. He picked up the potion he had left on the side of the bed. "Drink this. It will take care of most of the hangover."

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oh_merling
2010-10-11 08:46 pm UTC (link)

Merlin coughed, trying to hack out the taste of half-digested alcohol, whimpering simply because he hated to be sick; he'd rather be in discomfort all day and wait for it to subside than throw up and feel okay in a few hours.

It hurt to see, actually physically see, and he somehow managed to hear Zach through the thumping pain in his head. To say he let Zach get him up on to the bed was giving him a bit too much credit as he wouldn't really have been able to stop the older kid had he wanted to, had his brains not felt like they were trying to leak out of him.

He sat, or rather, slumped in the heap that he'd folded himself into, semi upright against the head of the bed he was in, reaching and obediently drinking the potion Zach gave to him because he was pretty sure he wouldn't be being molested in this condition, and if it was poisoned he welcomed it.

Not poison.

He kind of wished it had been though as the ache in his head settled to a manageable throb and his stomach, oh, his stomach turned from tempest to quite fjord. It would have been too easy to turn round and go back to sleep apart from the fact that the place now stank of sick and he was desperately trying not to remember why he had come to Zach's place - first things first though, he pulled his wand from somewhere and scourgified the floor. "Sorry." he said, which was a pretty good first word he felt.

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puffheir
2010-10-11 08:50 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias waited as Merlin drank the potion and let it settle his insides. He looked fairly pathetic, but that was often the case when people were suffering for ridiculous hangovers and had just retched all over the floor. Which, thankfully and much appreciated, he cleaned up with a spell.

"It's alright," he replied with a tiny smile, barely a smile, just a ghost of one, but it was there. He rubbed a hand against Merlin's back in a soothing manner before he stepped away.

"Do you want anything to drink? Eat?" he asked, because sometimes that settled the stomach a bit, some grease to sop everything up.

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oh_merling
2010-10-12 08:22 pm UTC (link)

Later Merlin would blame his hangover on why he didn't flinch away from Zach's touch; as it was the hand on his back settled him in a way that the hangover potion hadn't, even if it was for a moment.

He almost nodded to Zach's offers, especially for a drink (he loathed being sick and everything that came with it, especially the vomit-mouth afterward) but he had more pressing concerns before that, most specifically, "What am I doing here?" he couldn't even find the energy to sound suspicious; he was just glad his visions were backing off for the morning.

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puffheir
2010-10-12 08:29 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias smiled, and shook his head, amusement dancing over his features. Merlin was still suspicious of him - well, of course he was. Why wouldn't he be? Aside from drunken come ons and vomitting, nothing had changed.

"You showed up here last night," he explained. "You asked me to have sex with you. But, as we've already covered, since I won't be sleeping with you, I put you to bed. Or rather, made sure you passed out on the bed instead of the floor." He grinned a little and took his hand back.

"And then you woke up, vomitted, and here we are."

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oh_merling
2010-10-12 09:14 pm UTC (link)

Even with the potion working it's (literal) magic, Merlin still felt a little fragile so his paranoia hadn't had time to mature into full blown activity just yet.

His eyes widened in shock as he heard that but even that hurt so he just rubbed at them instead. He might have thought for an instant that maybe Zach was a) teasing him or b) had actually screwed him but last night was streaming back to him now and he could remember, much like watching a movie of himself, exactly what a jerk he had been. The quiet 'fuck' he muttered was testament enough to that.

He looked up and back at Zach with a wince. "I'm sorry." he apologised whole-heartedly, and although he wondered at Zach's genuinely gentlemanly behaviour he still made as if to go out the balcony door. "I'll let myself out and you'll never hear from me again." he tried to make it sound convicing but it was difficult when he knew it wasn't true. Also... "Apart from something to make up for-" he waved his hand as though he was indicating that he was making up for the majority of Zach's bedroom.

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puffheir
2010-10-12 09:18 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias reached out quickly, to loop an arm around Merlin's waist, drawing him back down to the bed. "Sit. You're not quite in any shape to go anywhere yet," he instructed, making sure that Merlin was indeed sitting before he let go of him.

"You don't have to do anything to make up for things. No harm no foul," he said with a shrug of his shoulders. The vomit on the floor was now gone, and so really, there wasn't anything that needed apologizing for. Sleeping on the sofa wasn't his favourite of activities, but one night hadn't killed him.

"Stay there. I'm going to get you some water," he said, and he got up and went into the kitchen. But didn't end up getting water. Instead, he took a few minutes and put together tea and toast (something even he could manage), and brought it into the bedroom. "Here. Eat this so I won't have to worry about you passing out from hunger."

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oh_merling
2010-10-13 10:02 pm UTC (link)

Merlin tensed up a bit when Zach caught him up, but in his defense he'd been expecting a hit; he was surprised Zach had stopped him at all, nevermind settling him back down on the (very comfy) bed.

His eyebrows twitched in confusion at 'no foul' because he was pretty sure storming into someone's house and demanding to be fucked under the knowledge that you were probably going to force them into at some point anyway could be construed as 'damage', but Zach left to get water and Merlin's head protested at being upright for no good reason.

He resisted the urge to lie back for all of three minutes and then he had to, curling up on the edge of the bed like a cat taking up minimum space. He pushed himself back up when Zach returned, taking the toast like he'd never seen it before. "You're being very kind." he said, slightly bewildered; if he'd been any less so he might have wondered if Zach hadn't taken that the wrong way.

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puffheir
2010-10-13 10:07 pm UTC (link)

"Yes well, don't tell anyone. I do have a reputation to maintain," Zacharias said, clearly joking. Although not everyone saw his kinder side. The people he disliked certainly did not. But for some reason - and he wasn't always entirely sure what that reason was - he liked Merlin. Was very near fond of him in some bizarre way.

He sat down on the edge of the bed after handing the tea and toast over to Merlin. "I don't find you entirely unlikeable," he told him. "Difficult, yes, certainly." Merlin was a difficult person to figure out.

"However I think you're putting too much stock in the future. Whether it's true or not - and yes, I believe your visions come true - it doesn't mean you need worry about things that haven't happened yet. You're likely to drive yourself mad that way."

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oh_merling
2010-10-15 08:21 pm UTC (link)

Merlin hid his face in the cup of tea as he tried to puzzle out Zach's motives, this kindness that he hadn't expected.

And if this was how Zach treated difficult people that he didn't dislike, what did he do for people he did?

He shook his head at that comment as he swallowed tea and put the cup down. "I don't know when it's going to happen." he said, feeling a little sheepish considering what he'd come here for last night. "I can't tell, but it's, like it's happening sometimes and-" he cut himself off and shook his head again, this time like he was trying to work out a complicated puzzle. "It's different, I don't know."

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puffheir
2010-10-15 08:43 pm UTC (link)

Zacharias shrugged again. "If it happens.. then it happens." He sighed and turned so he was fully facing Merlin.

"Look. Think of it logically. I know you don't like me, but hopefully you realize by now that I'm not the sort to force myself on people. And you aren't either... not to mention the fact that, well-" He looked over Merlin who was smaller than he was. "-I don't think you could, even if you were the type." He said this as nicely as possible.

"Which means, if it happens, it's wanted. So why worry about that?"

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oh_merling
2010-10-15 09:04 pm UTC (link)

Merlin looked down at his cup because he still couldn't look Zach in the eye regardless of how he was trying to reassure him. He huddled around his cup somehow, his finger playing around the lip.

"Apart from the fact that it can't be wanted-" Merlin started, because why would Zach really want to do that with him? "-I won't want it. I don't want it... my first time... to be a one night thing." It was a little embarassing to admit, but he still felt he owed it to Zach. "I've Seen more unlikely things happen." he added.

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puffheir
2010-10-15 09:13 pm UTC (link)

"You say 'can't' like you know every moment of the future, and I know that's not true," Zacharias said a bit blithely. "You know how you feel now. But I have it on rather good authority that people can and do change their minds sometimes. It's allowed, you know."

He laughed, but not unkindly. "Merlin. You're half a head shorter than I am, and you weigh significantly less. I play quidditch for a living. I'm fairly certain I could take you, so really, that's not a worry. Maybe you should give the here and now a chance instead of thinking you know exactly how things will get you to that one moment in the future." He reached over and touched his hand. "And who said your first time would be a one night stand?"

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