John leant into the kiss, almost over balancing as he did so. "New to me too," he said extremely softly. "'M just trying to get. To get. Well, mechanics straight in my head. We've had so many misunderstandings, and missteps with communication. I just want things settled in my head. Boundaries that I can relax around, and relax in. Just being there for you, content. This place steals people back, and there's no telling when it'd happen again to either of us. I just. I jus' need to know what you, how you would like me to conduct myself."