John closed his eyes. "You make me still amongst the madness. Really stop and look at myself. You saved me when I didn't know I needed rescuing. You. You make me feel loved, when I'd forgotten the meaning of the word," he said softly.
He opened his eyes slowly, squinting, a small tight smile playing across his lips, before it broke into an easier, more familiar one. "Now fuck me senseless, you beautiful bastard, before I have to take all that back."