Ianto stopped at the bottom of the stairs up to the house's door, looking down at his feet a moment. Drew in a deep breath before saying, "I'm looking for someone else to take control of me for a while. A few hours, the night. What I need? To let go of the control for a while. And just maybe find it again, in doing so? I'm not sure. I don't know." He let out a frustrated sound. "I've never... never come at this from this side of the equation before, Spike."