John didn't see the point in avoiding the issue, he wanted the Doctor to know in case he passed out, the reason behind it. He turned to face the Doctor. "As I said: fuckin' stupid. real stupid. I never let anyone in that far Doctor. No one. I knew he was nuts, but I let him take me. Even after what he did to Lucy too, I should've known he'd get in somehow." He paused and shuddered, closing his eyes, remembering. "I was after a bit of rough and tumble, if you get me? Usually helps to settle my head. But, I was just so damn stupid to get into it with him. Too damn cocky for my own good." He shook his head slowly. He sighed. "It was the Master that got into poor Lucy's head. He's out by the offices, skulking out there, if you ask me. He's bloody powerful."