Sam thought for a moment, this might take a while to explain. "It's....sort of complicated. Obviously there are things I haven't told you, about me and my life." He paused again, searching for the words to continue."I don't know if you've heard people mention on the network about being from or featured in TV shows? Well Dean and I apparently are and I caught a little of the newest episode of it and I.....a really close friend of ours.....she's....." He closed his eyes and shook his head slightly, as if willing what he said next to not be true. "She was murdered." He said finally. "Because of something I asked her to do."
The pain and the guilt he felt over Charlie's death were written all over him, but worse still was the knowledge that he had to keep this from Dean. "I think my brother might actually kill me if he finds out."