I can't really explain it. I mean, I don't even remember doing it. But what everyone's told me is that, after you died, I was in a really bad, really self-destructive place. And I really wasn't coping. And the best way I could think of to fix that and move on was to...ask Ric to compel away my memories of being in love with you. I didn't think you were coming back. And I really needed to stop destroying myself over you.
But then you were back. And I found out about what I'd done. And I was going to have Ric undo it, but then he ended up human. And he couldn't undo the compulsion. The only thing that would have done it would have been crossing the anti-magic barrier, and that probably would have killed me...so we decided not to do that. But...I guess even without remembering any of it...it was hard not to fall in love with you. So...we were giving it another shot.
I already said it back home, but I'll say it here too. I'm sorry, for removing my memories of us. They weren't just mine.