Exactly. Good things don't happen to us. They never have and we were stupid to think that was ever going to change. Cora's gone and it's freaking magic and we don't know that she's ever going to come back because magic did it and that's not something you can just fix.
And even if she comes back she might not even remember any of this. We don't know. We have no way of knowing or doing anything. We're helpless. We're always helpless. Things just happen and we can't stop them or fix them or do anything.
She was the only person here who made it okay. The only one. I feel like I'm losing my freaking mind and she was the only one who made it better. She's the only thing that felt real. And now I just want to wake up. Because this has to be another dream. Except I can't even tell the difference any more. I'm literally going crazy and she was the only one who made it better and now I don't know what to do. I've already lost my dad here, Derek. I can't lose Cora too.