It's been a long time since I've felt this way but you know when you are so hungry, because you haven't ate anything, that when you finally do it makes you feel even worse if you've gone too long? And then if you don't eat the right thing, it makes you sick? Now imagine that...but imagine eating something you know you aren't supposed to. Something that, technically, could be considered edible but isn't normally digested as food. Maybe like fish grease or a jar of nothing but pickle juice. But that's all you are offered and it just makes your stomach feel worse and meanwhile you are still so hungry that you feel weak.
That's how I feel and I couldn't force myself to keep feeding because my body knows it is wrong; and I haven't ate in so long that it's fighting against me now. And I either am going to have to manage with the deer or take my chances with glamouring someone in a town full of witches.