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Matt Cavanaugh (palehorses) wrote in we_float,
@ 2010-06-12 21:00:00

Current mood:	excited
Current music:	"Big Shot" :: Kill Hannah
Entry tags:	character: matt cavanaugh, character: maxxie delacourt

At seventeen they all hated her and me
Who: Maxxie Delacour and Matt Cavanaugh
When: Wednesday, June 9, 2096
Where: Matt's room
What: Matt tries to convince Maxxie to completely chick out with him.
Status: Closed, Incomplete

He opened the door to her knock, slightly surprised - he didn't remember anyone even knocking on the door before - but took the offered note calmly. As he read it, one eyebrow rose, and he looked up at her. "Come on in, then, princess."

He completely assumed, turning away to let her in, that she would follow; it never even occurred to him that she wouldn't, nor that she might be at all disturbed when he carefully set his cigarette into an ashtray and pulled his shirt off. "You can't just, like, look in the closet," he added, his voice slightly muffled. "Dresses are worn." But hey, she'd been in gymnastics for-fucking-ever, and TKD or whatever the hell else she did, she'd seen skin.

"As for the rest of it," he added, toeing his shoes off and using the opportunity to take a drag, "I haven't called a meeting because that's rather a statement of being the fucking leader, and I'm not even convinced I want to stay in this fucking country. I mean, that's not a fucking threat, I told you that already, it's just that going from christ I don't want this to yay, I will lead us all, is just a bit fucking weird, you know?"

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palehorses
2010-06-23 04:56 am UTC (link)

"You're trying to understand all people," Matt said finally, lighting a fresh cigarette. "You're extrapolating from what I'm saying, or what people at your events were doing, it sounds like, not fucking working out what the individual is doing or saying. Sounds like a slightly ass-backwards way of going about it - people are all different." He glanced at her curiously - he supposed, even as he'd said it, that that might not make sense. "I mean, just because people there were lying about what they meant and what they did to hide it, doesn't mean that all people lie, but it sounds like that's your fucking takeaway."

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maxblinks
2010-06-23 01:28 pm UTC (link)

"Of course people are all different, but you have to start from somewhere; that's the point of psychology." Her smile was tight. "And you'd be surprised how many people lie. And in how many ways." There were very few people she outright trusted. Two, really, that she could say: Tom and her brother. And she was positive her brother would still lie to her if he had a reason, and she could even think of a few reasons he might pick.

"And don't say go on instinct to decide about people; that doesn't work. There's no such thing as pure instinct. It's all about how some people just put the pieces together better and faster than others, and if you're not one of those people, and you try to go on instinct, it most definitely doesn't work." Relax and go with it had never worked for Maxxie, and had only served to get her into deeper trouble. She had no instinct whatsoever for people.

And she was talking way too much about herself. Lips pressed together, frowning, and a slow impish smile started as she remembered something. Reaching into her pocket, she pulled out the three bottles of nail polish she had there and let them rest on her palm. Her gaze flicked from the colors to Matt, then back again to the colors, and after a moment, she slipped two back into her pocket and held the last one out to him. The smile grew. "It'd look good with both the dress, and your eyes."

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palehorses
2010-06-24 05:41 am UTC (link)

Again she ducked the question of who she was. Matt noted it, but at this point he wasn't terribly surprised by it. Curious, yes - very curious. But surprised, no.

Her words caught at him, though; he took the polish with an appreciative smile - a nice shade and one he didn't have. "That's not a thing," he said. It was inarticulate as hell, but he was back to the feeling of being off-balance, of being pigeonholed in a way that didn't work. "I mean, I don't secretly long to be a girl or something, you know? It's just clothes, I like clothes, and I decided a long time ago not to, like, let the fucking norms of society dictate, you know?" He shrugged, his sense of discomfort increasing. "I wear that the same way I wear jeans. I see something I like, I buy it, I wear it. I'm not, like, planning to change my name to Vanessa or something."

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	maxblinks 2010-06-24 12:25 pm UTC (link)
	"You said that," she pointed out, and a small smile flickered. "Or at least, that just wear it. And I accepted it. Although the sad thing about dresses is that you can only wear them sometimes, otherwise they get in the way. Don't seem to have very many opportunities to dress up." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

palehorses
2010-06-25 02:47 am UTC (link)

"It's weird," he said finally. "I feel like you do this every day. You know, get up, put on pants, no thought that two hundred years ago, it would've probably been better to be seen wearing your underwear on the outside. You know, you, where you means girls. Women. Both. Shit, I don't fucking know. You can wear anything, and no one ever assumes you're saying something about who you like to fuck or whether you think you were born in the right body, you know? Well, most people don't, but the rest are dumb rednecks out in Orting who should've been shot a long fucking time ago. Me, I have to explain that. Worse, I feel like I have to explain it. For fuck's sake, it's clothes. I mean, if the world wants to see me naked, they fucking well can." He grinned at that, a trace of viciousness to the look. "Probably best not to go there. But you know, seriously, you got it good, princess. And I mostly do, I'm not saying I don't, but there's still the whole ooh, freakshow thing. Fuck it."

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maxblinks
2010-06-25 02:30 pm UTC (link)

"But the world hasn't changed all that much," Maxxie countered, warming up to the debate (and oh how she loved debate). "If someone sees a woman in trousers, then she's as good as a guy, as long as those pants aren't too floofy or feminine. If she's wearing a business suit, then she's trying to be a man but feminine at the same time. But if she's wearing a long flower-print skirt that summery and bright, then she's obviously a weak little hothouse flower who needs to be protected."

She drew in a deep breath, nowhere near done yet, "so see, if you go out wearing that same flowery dress, it's not that you're a freakshow, it's that you're being looked at the same way we are and no one ever understands why a guy would want to be weak. But all you're thinking is pretty and hey it looks cool, but the rest of the world says that's a pushover pussy sort of thing to wear. They don't laugh at girls for being weak, just think it's right, better than when we wear suits or pants. It's the kind of thing that makes me want to go out heroing in a frilly dress just to shock people when I start kicking butt."

She shook her head. "Someday people will just see clothes and not label them. Maybe. It's all sociologically complicated."

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palehorses
2010-06-27 02:11 am UTC (link)

"Not like it was even a hundred years ago," Matt countered sharply. "I mean, seriously, there's been fucking progress."

He gestured uselessly, trying to think of what he could say to prove his point, but he wasn't that well versed in history. Instead, he said "You're right, though - fag's the least bad of it, I wear that out. Pisses me off, honestly, for a lot of reasons. Like, fuck, your life's kind of limited if that's what you're worried about."

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