"I was going to tell you because I thought it was time to tell someone. Dinah just happened to be the one who got it first when I saw her as I left to come here." Fred just looked at him.
"I wasn't going to tell anyone because I wasn't. I couldn't. I am saying something now because I thought I should. Just so happened, and I'm kind of proud of it even if you are acting a bit like a jackass right now, that I said 'no.'" She looked at him. "I said 'no' because I thought maybe you wouldn't like it. Maybe I should stop because maybe the guy I was possibly seeing, who possibly liked me, wouldn't like it. And..you don't, but you're acting as if I was keeping something from you that wasn't even happening when you showed up. I didn't think it was going to be an issue we, not I, but we would have to deal with because I thought he had forgotten about me."
She pushed from the counter and started toward the elevator.
"I came here to tell you about it because I thought you'd be proud too. I thought you'd realize this was a big step, and maybe you'd see that I want to be better without the extra whatever. That I thought you and the other people who care about me could and do care about me without being on that stuff. I thought that you would understand somehow." Fred didn't even bother to hold back the tears.
"I can understand angry, but acting like it was an attack on you. The 'no' had something to do with you. The telling too. But everything else happened before you." She shook her head. "I just thought you'd see beyond it all."