Hopefully third time's a charm at gettin this apology thing right. So here goes.
Been doing a lot of thinking out on the road, dealing with shit I had refused to deal with, all that fun personal stuff. Still got a long way to go but I know now that the way I acted earlier this week? Yeah, I made Magneto look like a knight in shining armor. So for what it's worth to everyone, I'm sorry about the way I acted and the douchey assholic things I said. I know I can't take 'em back but for what it's worth, sorry about them all. I'll try to be a better man and not get that way ever again. And if I do, well I'm sure a few people will kick my ass for it.
Think one of my issues too is I need a good scrap, fight, whatever the hell you wanna call it, to channel that whole aggression thing. So, here's me askin for some help on that front. Anyone got an idea on what a productive way to channel aggression is? Bottlin it up ain't a good idea. And I've been a fighter too damn long to suddenly change that. But I'm hopin that an outlet, preferably a sanctioned outlet, to channel said aggression will help on that front.
I hope all that made sense. Words ain't exactly my strongest suit as a lot of you've seen.
[Sergievskys]
Got no right to ask for forgiveness. Not after what I've done and going behind your back and all that. But I'm sorry for it. I was a douchecanoe, asshole, dick, jerk, etc to your family. Promise to do my best to try to make it up to you all no matter how long it takes. That's the very least I owe you all.
Anatoly, sorry about the pop on the jaw. Had no right to do that. None at all. Hope it hasn't bruised too bad. And I hate sayin this with my pride but it needs sayin if I'm to try and become less of an asshole and jerk. You're a better man than I am.
[Svetlana]
I really don't expect you or your family to forgive me any time soon Svetlana. Hell, I don't deserve you all forgivin me. But I need to man up to what I did, apologize for it, and realize that even if you didn't have Anatoly, you'd never want a guy like me. Be lying if I said I'd change everything about me for you. I'm a physical fighter and that really doesn't seem to be your cup of tea. I need to learn to live with that and figure out exactly what these feelings are.
Cause I do care about you Svetlana. I just need to figure out how I care about you. Told the future Fayina this but my place next door to yours is vacant at the moment since I'm on a road trip. It's clean and your future versions of your daughters are welcome to it while I'm out if they want.