I can't believe I'm actually saying this to someone but for god's sake, man up. You've posted almost the exact same thing for days now. We get it, you have nightmares and deal with it stupidly. You've had trauma before, and I'm sorry for that, I am, but come on, the vast majority of people here have been through some serious shit in their time. We're in the middle of an apocalypse, we do not have the luxury of sitting around and being stuck in the past. Get over it, move on.