|Mara Jade (greeneyedlady) wrote in wariscoming,|
@ 2015-08-29 21:41:00
Mara had been walking for a good bit when she decided to stop and sit down. She been wandering around the woods behind the Queen estate most of the morning but surprisingly wasn't tired. Dropping to the ground, she curled her feet beneath her and contemplated the object in her hand. It was a light saber which wasn't an unusual object for her to have but this light saber was different. This light saber meant more to her than the one she'd made herself and used for years. This one had been given to her, a gift that she didn't think she deserved at the time, given to her as a show of faith and a belief that she could be something more than what she was. She could be a Jedi.
The light saber she held in her hands had belonged to Luke and before that to his father. Anakin had made it, had used it and when he fell to the dark side, Obi-Wan had saved it with the intention of giving it to Luke one day. Which he had but Luke had lost it when he lost his hand on Bespin and it had ended up in the hands of a mad man who had used it to make a clone of Luke. The clone that Mara had killed in order to fulfill the Emperor's last command to her. The command to kill Luke Skywalker. So it had come full circle more than once, Luke had gotten it back but he'd given it to her. He'd told her that he believed she could be a Jedi, a strong Jedi, one that could do a lot of good. She'd tried to refuse the gift but he had insisted and for many years it had been hers. Eventually she did make one, she became the Jedi that Luke had believed she could be but this light saber had always been special.
She had been beyond surprised when she'd woken up on Tuesday morning to find it on her nightstand. At first she thought it was a replica, something that Ben had found in a shop and had left there to surprise her. Then she'd touched it and she'd known the truth. It was real and the rush of memories that came with that touch almost overwhelmed her. Even in this place, the Force existed, it was still all around her and it still spoke to her. People were saying the Seal had left them gifts but Mara didn't fully believe that. This gift had to have come from the Force because only the Force could have known how badly she needed it right now.
The time that Ben had believed himself to be a Sith had scared her. She would never admit it but it reminded her just how close he had been to falling. It was over now but it still haunted her and probably always would. The one good thing that had come out of it was that she and Jacen had made their peace. He had told her that he knew he shouldn't have tried to turn Ben, he regretted those choices even though at the time he'd believed they were the right ones. She knew at last that he truly had changed. He wasn't the person he'd been before, he wasn't the man who had ended her life, he was the person that he could have been if he'd made different choices.
Then she'd gotten younger and relived part of her time as the Emperor's Hand. That had been strange, she hadn't even recognized the person in the mirror, she had no memories of where she was, she didn't even know her own son. Thankfully she hadn't done anything to harm anyone, she had simply wandered around town lost, trying to figure out what her mission was. She never did find out because it didn't exist. It had only lasted a week which was a relief.
Now this. Mara pushed the button and watched the bright blue blade come to life. She'd never seen another one that was exactly this color, she thought and wondered if somehow it had taken on the Force sense of the three Jedi who had held it. The crystals did that, they took on characteristics of the Jedi who made them. It had been blue when Obi-Wan had given it to Luke, he'd told her the story, so it must have been blue when his father had made it. Now though it was a brighter blue, maybe some of her own Force sense had joined with Luke's and Anakin's to make the color. The light saber she'd made herself had a violet blade so perhaps...she shook her head and turned it off. Who knew.
She hadn't told Ben that she had it. Mara couldn't say exactly why that was but she'd wanted to keep it to herself. Maybe it was because it brought back so many memories for her, good ones and bad ones, maybe it was because it made her miss Luke even more than she already did, or maybe it was just that she needed time...time to sit and think about it, time to wish that Luke had come with it for that was the gift she really wanted. Mara wasn't the most romantic woman in the universe, she knew that, and she wasn't one to pine away for someone but Luke Skywalker wasn't just anyone. He was her soulmate, the father of her child and the only man she would ever love. The only man she'd ever admitted to loving or even wanted to love.
Leaning her head against the tree trunk, she sighed. No use wishing for things that weren't going to happen. Mara had given up thinking that Luke would come here, at least until the light saber showed up. Was it a sign? Did it mean that he might appear? Most likely not but right now, Mara wanted to believe that. Right now she wanted to believe in miracles.
She could use one.