kara lynn palamas / agent 33 (likeageek) wrote in wariscoming, @ 2015-04-19 20:36:00 |
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Entry tags: | grant ward, kara lynn palamas |
WHO: Kara Lynn Palamas & Grant Ward
WHAT: Sometimes it takes awhile to come in out of the cold.
WHEN: Not long after this
WHERE: Just outside of the graveyard
RATING: TBD
Losing yourself was frightening enough. To wake to the realization that everything you were, everything you had been, was just gone no matter how much you tried to bring it back was something that left you constantly struggling. There were pieces, pieces that Kara could see that existed just outside of her grasp, but no matter how much she tried to find a way to piece back the remnants of what remained together, all that ever accomplished was leaving her frustrated and hollow. So it had been easier. It had been simpler to just throw herself into the role that she was able to take on, of caregiver, to the man that she had pulled out of the fire back in San Juan, who had saved her in an emotional sense just as much as she had saved him in a physical one. It had been a long struggle back to the place that she even found herself in right now, which still wasn't that great, and this uprooting, thrown in on top of everything, left her grasping for how to cope.
But Grant was here. He was here, and that was more than she had expected when she'd found herself in the middle of a graveyard on the outskirts of an unfamiliar town. Her first thought had been HYDRA, that she'd been found, pulled back in somehow, that this was how they were going to break her this time, through isolation, and then the welcoming committee had shown up, and it had left her even more unbalanced than before. So much so that she had just started walking, unsure of exactly what to do or where to go, until she had seen that she wasn't as alone as she thought.
So she'd turned around, like she said she would, and had headed back towards the graveyard in an attempt to make herself easier to locate. Because she wanted to be found. In this moment, there wasn't anything that she wanted more. It was bad enough not being able to find yourself without not having anyone else there to help you do it.