Caroline Forbes (agelessbeauty) wrote in wariscoming, @ 2015-01-06 19:47:00 |
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Entry tags: | caroline forbes |
Who: Caroline
What: sadness
Where: at home
When: when Bonnie left
Warnings: nah
The Seal had an amazing way of putting things into perspective.
Matters that had seemed to be important were suddenly cast to the wayside, barely thought about when someone was suddenly gone. All of the what-ifs about what would happen to a lost friend at home were constantly repeating in one’s mind and Caroline wasn’t sure if knowing at least part of what happened to them was good or not.
Bonnie was going home to die. Only to be brought back and endure horrible pain as an anchor and then die all over again. How was that fair? How was any of it fair? But then again, life wasn’t fair. She’d learned that when her father had left Mystic Falls, left her and her mother, and while he’d said he would always be there for her, none of it had ever been the same again. They had picked up the pieces as best they could and worked to move on, to keep on living.
It’s what she’d always done. After turning, after being tortured more times than she could honestly remember any more. All that anyone could really do was keep on living and part of her was grateful for the fact that she got to keep living, that her time wasn’t permanently up. She tried not to listen to the darker parts that wound around in her head, asking her if all of the pain was really worth it in the end.
She clutched onto the good things whenever those thoughts started trying to push their way through, clung to the her mother’s smile, Elena’s laughter, the feel of Klaus’ arms wrapped around her. It didn’t quite push away the sadness that wanted to seep into the very heart of her, didn’t make up for Bonnie’s missing presence, but it was enough to keep on going.
Though tomorrow.
Tonight she just wanted to flip through the photo album she had that contained pictures of Bonnie, her and Elena and drink until she felt numb.