Damon stumbled slightly as she pushed him away, catching himself on the counter behind him. He looked like he'd been slapped. He knew it wouldn't be this easy to make it up to her. But, it didn't mean that being pushed away from her didn't hurt.
However, he also knew that that hurt was nothing compared to how he'd hurt her. He was the biggest idiot in the world. But, he couldn't help but see her as perfect. Because she was, to him. Her flaws just made her more perfect, and he was so terrified of changing her, he forgot just how much she'd managed to change him. There were things about himself he knew could never completely change. But, she made him want to be better. For her.
"Damnit, Elena!" Damon's voice started to rise in frustration. "Do you really think I don't understand that?" His hands gestured angrily as he continued. "But, I'm terrified. Of this, of everything."
He turned away, running his hands over his face. Admitting he was scared had never been easy for the vampire, who faced everything with a smirk and a quip.
"I love you, Elena." He said, turning back to her. "And this. You and me. It's everything I ever wanted. Everything I could ever wish for. And that scares me more than anything ever has." He paused, eyes running over her face, gauging her reaction. "I freaked, okay? Because I've never been happier than I am with you. And, I didn't see how it could last." He smiled self deprecatingly, "Because I'm just not that damn lucky."
Damon took a deep breath, calming himself. "I can't promise I won't freak again." He said quietly, taking a step towards her. "But, I will promise not to bail again." He swallowed nervously. Hoping that this was enough.