It was like a gigantic weight was lifted off her shoulders at his words. She didn’t want to be a mother. She didn’t want all of the responsibility that came along with that. She was good with being a friend, with caring for the boy, but everything she’d been doing for the last few months had taken its toll and she hadn’t been sure how to verbalize that. She didn’t want it to seem like she wanted nothing to do with Henrik, she loved the kid, but being the one who looked out for every single little detail with him had been a bit much.
“Am I a really horrible person if I say oh thank god? Because I like him a lot. I love him. He’s a great kid and he deserves the best but taking on all of that responsibility. Making sure he was fed and clothed and got to meet people and had someone watching him and brushed his teeth and all of it...I am so ready for that.” She had been pretty sure it was off the books once she’d become a vampire anyway. “Like I’ll do it if I need to because I remember what it was like coming home to an empty house because my dad left and my mom was working to pay the bills and to not think about it all and I don’t ever want Henrik to feel like I did then, but I so do not want to be a mom anytime soon.”
She wanted to travel and have late nights out and long mornings in bed. She wanted to enjoy her youth and while she would happily make concessions as needed, there had been a lot of them in the last few months.