"I guess drink does have its uses," Damien admitted. "When you've been through what we have.. well, one would try anything to take the memory and anguish of it away. Even if it's temporary. But probably not a large amount to make you sick. Or worse." He was honestly worried at times. It can be dangerous, but at the same time, it was a small fix. Though not one that lasted too long. Most would drink, while others might have an urge to break things. He knew it wasn't a fully healthy method. But then again, there wasn't really any self-help books on how to deal properly with that type of thing. There had never been anyone who had been through Hell and back. Except demons and he wasn't about to contact any. But Ruby.. no, he didn't wish to ask her of this either, not when there were more important things going on, no need for him to compound the problems with his own. He'd deal with this on his own. Or mostly his own.
He held her hand as it moved toward him. "Anyone even tries to throw you off a roof, they would answer to me and believe me, they really won't want that at all," Damien spoke with a light smile, and a hint of a promise. It was like if Ghostface showed up, he would be tempted to deal with him on Sidney's behalf. "I know how you feel about the trusting. Even though I'm fully protected while in here. And even though I have my own special talents that I'd use if a threat ever came, I'm very capable.. there is still that doubt. I still can't shake the need to be careful and alert in public, looking over my shoulder more than I used to." Though admittedly, he could hide it and pretend to be in a normal state if he had to. "It.. it's still a little bad. Not as much. But there's still the dreams." He sighed, taking a shot of his own to drink. "Everything that happened down there, can't really forget it. But it's also the time. Fifty years. That's considered a lifetime for most people. A lifetime in which they have happy lives, a spouse, children, a family. And yet, instead? We spent ours in the worst part of Hell, enduring torment for what felt like a half eternity. Down there that long, over and over.. it makes me want to, as I said, break a few things. Or go on hunts. Hunting, there's always that option for me at least."