"Actually on a scale of who heaven would hate most? I even come out ahead of Crowley. I was one of theirs and I broke. I was one of theirs and I fought Lucifer. Yeah, they wanted their apocalypse. Him to die, Michael to win, the world to suffer. They wanted him free as much as his demon minions did. That's the sad thing. And most of the demons were plyable enough to believe in my brother. Not Crowley though"
Talking about his own brother, Anna knew how he felt. The fall had torn at her, at all of them. Lucifer had been the best of them, the brightest star. The Morning Star. And he couldn't deal with humanity, with bowing to them, the hairless apes as he called them.
"He reminds me of Lucifer. I mean I don't know him, not well, but its the arrogance. The belief he's right, the world is wrong and everyones out to get him. And it doesn't make you love them any less but you can't agree with it, and you can't spend your life trying to save them. But know that not all of heaven is lost, there are still some, brothers and sisters of mine who still know what it should mean."
When he moved closer to her Anna wasn't quite sure what to do, it was all getting a bit strange now. More than she had expected on finding a drunk Kol on the couch hours ago.
"I'm not the ex. I mean not as its usually meant. I'm the one he lost. He never ended it. It doesn't mean he loves you any less. You found him at the right time for you both and that's fine. He probably thought me dead. I know he looked. But its hard for me, when people call me the ex. Not cause of you really, either of you. But I don't feel like the ex. Does that make sense?"
It was a mess. She know it was a mess. "I know he has feelings for me, we've both tried not to, and god knows I've tried to walk away. I just can't. Not from him. And I'm living here, and its complicated and messy and beyond strange. I don't know what to do to make it okay and I would understand if you hated me. I'd hate..."
Reasons he fell for her.
"Kol. This is...I mean I know why he fell for you too. I get it, and you're right you are basically walking blasphamy but so is he. And I've long accepted that so am I. I still follow my father. I still know he'll come back one day, save us. But I know I should have fallen a third time the second I came back and couldn't walk away. and I know it took a wish this time to make sure I don't. Because I can't walk away, from him or from you. Because you kind of come as a pair now."