|Parker (shinytomato) wrote in wariscoming,|
@ 2014-01-08 20:17:00
Who: Parker, open to anyone
What: She's been kicked in the emotional teeth and decides to finally man up to her inner garbage
When: Today, post most recent network post
Where: Heading for Damien's manor post leaving an empty warehouse
Warnings: Cue major lack of self worth thanks to the cage, trust issues by the ton and haywire emotions a plenty. Plus the better part of a week in the cold is not helping things.
After having her rooftop haven blown open Parker had been hopping from rooftop to warehouse and back again since the weekend. She was just not ready to talk much less have her heart stomped on all over again, "Plus time to be honest, you can never tell who will simply shove you off a rooftop among other things." she mused under her breath.
Two nights before however was when part of the wall had started to tumble down, somehow Elizabeth along with Damien had gotten to that little shred of the old Parker. Tonight however had been the breaking point. Tony's comment along with Hal's had triggered something within her, a sign of the old Parker. A woman who might still have some caring and heart left after all. Maybe in the end the cage did not destroy everything that made Parker her? That was when she finally gave into her pain and cried. She cried till her throat was raw and what was left of her heart aching. But as the tears fell she came to a decision along with that voice of reason she had tried to send packing.
"Maybe freezing is not the answer after all? Maybe its time to actually be among people again and face this?" as she packed up what little she had grabbed before taking off from the manor. So after making sure nobody could see she had been living in the warehouse she hopped out the window and started walking back towards the manor. That same little voice reminded her that while some might hate her at least she would be safe and not freezing. "At least Damien won't push, the Brit has little red and well miss horror movie won't pull anything?" she mused to herself. That was when she let rip a coughing fit. The cold, nights of screaming and her tears had done its share of damage in the end.
But for now she just kept walking, it was all she could do to just put one foot in front of the other. Each step was a step towards the road back and to getting the true Parker back. She also made another decision, it would not be anytime soon but she knew amends would have to be made. "I can accept that." she whispered. "But before slipping into the dark for some healing an apology will be written."
But a part of her was hoping if anyone did find her it would be Damien, Elizabeth, Kenzi or even Andy.
They had gotten some of her trust and past the walls around her heart.
But she still had a makeshift weapon hidden in her pocket, even now she was not going to take any chances of having her heart ripped out again.