Ruby jumped, not from the blare of the horn, not from the fact he slammed his hand so hard. No it was what he said that was getting to her. He really believed her to be this great evil conspiritor. Out to get him?
No, no that wasn't fair. He couldn't pin that one on her, she wouldn't let him. He couldn't say all this had ever been was a way to screw him over because that was bull, that was unfair. "I thought it would be good. I know, I know you'll say how could I have, I know. But I believed in what I was told, You were special. There's actual prophacy about you actual lore that one day you were gonna bring about the apocolypse. You and Dean you're at the center of so much and I thought, You'd be okay cause I'd make you ready. I wasn't out to screw you over. I wanted... I thought I wanted you as a Lord of Hell and me, right there with you I guess"
She sat stubbornly where she was. Not moving, not even considering it. "I had to tell you because, I looked at you tonight, and I could see. I could tell that that wasn't what I believed at all. That you becoming all that would destroy you and its you I fell in love with, you understand. Its always been about you and I finally realised. I had everything I wanted, without, the lies and the blood. I had someone that loved me. I, couldn't let you destroy yourself just to kill her. Thats why I didn't deal and thats why if I get out of this car I'm dead either way. It'll just take her a few millenia more than you so, please just do it okay. Don't just throw me out of your life because I will find you again if I have to wear every coma patient in this damn country to do it."
And she would have. She would still do anything for Sam even if he hated her for it.