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Katherine Pierce believes her own lies. (believesownlies) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2013-09-16 20:11:00

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katherine pierce, regina mills

Katherine & Regina
Talking & possible feels
Monday evening, September 16, 2013; House of Lust
TBD/In progress

For once in her very long life, Katherine Pierce didn't know what her next move was.

Katherine had been in a mopey mood since Gaia had left. She had been the former vampire's first friend here, after all that had happened with Moriarty and no one wanted anything to do with her. She had opened her doors to her and Katherine had taken her up on her open-door offer multiple times. She had truly been one of the only people she was close to and then she was just...gone. Without a word or any notice at all. That's how the seal worked, of course. She knew that. She'd experienced it a few times herself. But she hadn't really felt the aftermath of it before. She had never actually lost anyone she cared about to it until now. And it hurt.

And then Death showed up. Death who would definitely not be pleased with her. Killing herself. Becoming a vampire. All the deaths she'd caused. So many things had been so wrong with that particular Horseman's appearance on the boards. She remembered that day last year when He had used her to speak a piece of a message. She shuddered at the thought. He'd taken over, she had no control, and the rage. So much rage. He hated her, what she was, her very existence was a total abomination to Him and everything that He was. This time, things had been different, but she'd purposely stayed out of it and far away from any and all Death-related conversations. There was no use in getting into them, really. She wouldn't have sacrificed herself, literally or figuratively by switching places with Death for the day. Not that he'd have taken her. But still.

All of those talks, though. She'd read them, kept up with them. She knew what was going on. The things people were doing. For their friends, their families. Even for people like her. A stranger, an enemy. She couldn't imagine living that kind of nobility. That wasn't her. Never was. Never would be. She was a survivalist, through and through. Always looking out for herself. "Better you die than I." she'd told Elena that once. And it still held true. Friends as she may have gained and would do what she could for them, however little that was now stripped of her vampire abilities, she wondered how it would all play out in the end. If she had to choose between them and herself, what would she do? She wasn't even sure anymore.

Katherine made her way around the kitchen to pour herself a glass of wine. After the last week or so, and especially today, lord knew she needed it. Once the glass was poured, she left to bottle on the counter and sat down at the table. Elijah was upset with her. Maybe rightfully so, but she couldn't help what she felt. And safe in the Mikaelson household was not it. She hated to tell him no, especially about this, about her own safety. But when it came right down to it, she couldn't possibly feel comfortable with Klaus so close. Elijah thought he could control him, all three of his siblings. But Klaus had already reminded her so many times that she was only living by his good grace. Not that it was very good grace. But still. Should he wish it, she'd be dead. And they both knew it.

She wanted it to be different, oh how she wanted it to be, but she knew that was only like trying to catch smoke with your bare hands. It'd never happen. She would never, for any reason, given any amount of time, be accepted into that family. Not even as a tolerance, and certainly not as welcomed as Caroline had been. Sure, there had been resistances at first, but she saw them, the way they talked and acted around her. She was practically one of them. And in a certain right, Katherine was jealous. Caroline had what she never could. Basic acceptance. No fuss, no muss, no eternity-long hatred. She didn't have to walk on egg shells around them. The way she talked to Klaus sometimes... Katherine shook her head at the thought, taking a sip of her wine. Not a single soul had lived to treat him that way. She couldn't imagine Klaus being a man of love, but even the beast could be tamed, apparently.

She set the glass down and sighed, folding her hands on the table. She wasn't sure what to do. About missing Gaia, about Death, the inevitable Apocalypse that was chasing their heels now, about Elijah. For once in her very long life, Katherine Pierce didn't know what her next move was.

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mostresilient
2013-09-17 12:37 am UTC (link)

One by one her friends seemed to be taken by the Seal. One after another all those who had taken the time to talk to her were gone. Part of her still believed it was what she deserved. What had she actually done in life to deserve any goodness? Lawrence had been her second chance at life. To prove she was more than what everyone believed her to be. The Evil Queen. Prove that there was good in her. Henry had believed in her and she hadn't done anything in the almost year that she had been here to deserve it. His disbelief that she loved him was just another thing she had deserved. But she did love him. More than her own life. On more than one ocassion she'd thought to reach out to him but found herself at a loss for what to say. She'd verbally tried to reassure him of her life but he'd counter saying they were just words. And words were all she had. Emma would never let her see him and Regina doubted Henry wanted to ever see her. Too much damage had been done. Katherine had asked what it was Regina was keeping to herself. There weren't that many secrets between the two friends. But the secret of what occurred after the disaster that Jerry had started had been something Regina had kept to herself. It was her burden to bear. Her own mess that only she could remedy. How, was still a mystery, but giving up all hope was not an option. Even with her doubts a small part of her clung to the hope she could reassure him. If not by words but her actions one day in the future.

Each day the fear that someone else she cared about would be next pricked at her mind. At work she carried on as if nothing was wrong. It wasn't as easy to mask her feelings anymore. With her whole life having been bared for the world to see and how much she had been through in a year. Those she worked with just found it intriguing she looked like the actress who played her and went by Regina. But no one had ever made a huge fuss about it and for that she was immensely greatful. Trying to deal with the fallout of that potential disaster was something Regina hoped to avoid however long she is here. It took significantly more time and effort to put the masks in place but she'd taken to wearing those very same ones she had worn while Snow grew up. Regina began rising earlier, mentally putting those masks in place. There was no room for failure. Her masks would remain in place until she was in the safety of her own home. And other than Katherine and their cats there was no one else to see her walls come down. Her emotions bared. Because they had all been taken.

The Seal had been benevolent bringing Katherine back with her memories intact. Though she wasn't entirely the same she was still Katherine. One of her best friends. Once they'd gotten over the rough patch that had been the first few days of her return, it had been comforting. Comforting to have that person who understood what she was still coming to grips with. But now that's all she had in the house. Gannicus had been the first to be taken. Gaia had drawn in on herself and spent most of her time with Galen. Regina didn't blame her. Gannicus was a link to her world who was taken away by the whims of the Seal. Then Gaia too had been taken followed shortly by Galen. She couldnt even remember when it was but Damon who though he hadn't lived in the hous and she'd only just started to get to know had been taken as well. Her friends leaving one by one. The house seemed so empty now. Gone were the sounds she'd grown used to hearing. The door to their rooms remaining firmly shut. Regina kept it tidy and dust free but she never lingered. Lingering was too painful. Especially considering she knew what they would return to. Knew that they'd be returning to eventually die.

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I can't believe this took two tags \o/

mostresilient
2013-09-17 12:39 am UTC (link)

Regina checked the boards often. Seeing what others were saying but as she often did she refrained from commenting. Most wouldn't want to hear what her thoughts were anyway. No, she'd just read and keep aware of everything that's happening. She could at least do that. When it came down to the final battle they were all supposed to fight then she may speak up. For now remaining in the shadows was easier. Part of her knew she should check on Greg at some point. It had been a few days since they'd last spoke or seen each other. And she did miss him but Regina had also needed to be alone for awhile. Something she really doubted he minded. They both were people who liked their alone time despite anything they'd revealed to the other.

Grabbing her glass, Regina left her room and moved into the kitchen, spotting Katherine immediately. Pouring herself a glass of wine she took in the state of her best friend and leaned on the counter. Taking a quick sip she quietly prodded "Everything all right, dear?" Regina wasn't in that much of a talkative mood but Katherine was her best friend and she'd sit there and listen. If prodded she may open up but it was doubtful.

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believesownlies
2013-09-17 11:39 am UTC (link)

Katherine didn't notice Regina until she spoke, too lost in her own thoughts, and that disturbed her. Despite having been back, being human, for nearly two months, she was still at a great loss without her added abilities, abilities she had come to rely so much on. Somewhere in her mind she still felt she should have heard Regina approaching long before she even reached the kitchen.

She looked up slowly at her friend and shrugged slightly. "I've been better." And even such a simple statement could still be so very loaded. That could be taken a number of ways, for those who knew her well enough. And if anyone in Lawrence knew her well enough to pick up on the multitude of meanings behind a single statement, it was Regina.

"Elijah's being ridiculous." she said after another long moment of silence, her tone holding a little more bitterness than she'd have expected. "All pouty because I don't-- I won't stay at his house during all of this." Among other things. She'd told him she wasn't making it a situation where he would be forced to choose. But still, he'd shown who he would choose and it hurt. Maybe she couldn't understand it because she was blind to anything more of his siblings than the pure hatred, sheer arrogance that she could see in them, or maybe she just forgot what family was all about because she had been without for so very long. But to know that when push came to shove, she was second to them? It cut deep.

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