Live and let live. That was the mentality everyone was trying for, or so they claimed. But it was easier said then done. Elena was the one they looked to in the past so she kept pushing through it. But it wasn't as easy as she tried to claim it was. It wasn't simple in the long run. She wanted to be done with Mystic Falls, had claimed as such, but she never would be. Matt was exempt. Jeremy and Jenna were, family and all. Lee and Lexi were technically Russian so they didn't necessarily fall into the category. She just.. didn't know what to do or say. And for someone who always used to write, not having the words she needed to convey things was hard. They hadn't been there for so long and she still couldn't adjust to that fact. Didn't know how to handle it when she couldn't find the words she wanted to write down.
It was hard, Klaus being around after all the pain he had inflicted. All the death and suffering and stress he inflicted on them. It had been so long since Jenna had died, at least in her timeline but both of them being there... it was so fresh. And she understood that was why Rebekah hated her now that she knew about Kol. Understood that pain and it was why she couldn't blame them for that anger. The facts didn't matter that it was to save Jeremy, but that was the difference, wasn't it. If there had been another way to save Jeremy, Elena had to believe that it never would have come to killing Kol. But Klaus? He killed so many. The sacrifice all for his need to be special. And now...
Nope, not thinking about it. It was the only way to survive sometimes. To avoid thinking about it. To avoid it because it hurt too much, because it would become overwhelming, just as it had back in March. There were no physical scars from the suicide attempt, but she remembered it all.
Sometimes Elena felt bad that Matt was so outnumbered. And up until the Seal had decided to once again take Anakin, she had been convinced they could have been friends. But that wasn't an option now and Elena was going to have to once again adjust somehow to the loss of the Jedi Knight who had managed to break through the defenses she had put up, go past all of her insisting that loving her was dangerous, that getting close to someone meant their death sentence.
"I get that. I initially was going to just get my GED and find a job when I first showed up. But Ruby talked me into the school thing." Back into a normal life. How the end of the world didn't mean she had to stop living. Though Elena doubted that now. But she still understood the desire to have have something to do on the side, when things were quiet.