Who: Kat! (narrative) What: Birthday angst When: Backdated to the 20th, near midnight aka beginning of the 21st. AKA Erin didn't get this done in time oops. Why: Kat has twinfeels, k? Rating: Mild Status: Finished!
Every so often, Kat caught herself wishing her sister were here. She always immediately regretted it, remembering all the horrible things that happen here every month or so, remembering vividly all the horrible things she's experienced first hand. She never wanted Lina to have to deal with any of that, to be at risk so often, or even to be hurt simply because someone she cared about got hurt. This place... Kat didn't wish this on her sister, even if she wanted her nearby.
Except sometimes. Like right now.
Birthdays back home had always been a weird thing. Having a twin sister meant it wasn't really her day, it was their day, and once they'd gotten older, it had been just that - the two of them, doing something. Maybe with friends, maybe not, it varied by the year.
Last year, Kat hadn't even mentioned the day to anyone. It had been weird, then, but she'd mostly just ... ignored it. Because that was what she did. Especially back then. So she'd made jokes at Sherlock about abducting him to Australia (- and she pointedly wasn't thinking about how short that friendship had been cut, or how, because that date was coming up soon, too -), and then gone on about her day, gotten drunk on a beach somewhere in Mexico, because she could.
This year, it's heading towards midnight, towards the start of the day, and Kat is on the roof of her apartment building, because this is about as far as she can teleport, and it's not booze in the cup she's holding, which is her trying not to be stupid, because it's just a day, so she's just having tea, okay? Lina tea. Because she did that, she made her sister a tea, and maybe it's stupid, but she knows Lina would have thought it was great, so she did it anyway.
Kat doesn't know when she stopped wanting to go home.
Even when she breaks it down logically, actually takes the time to sit and think about it, the negatives (the biggest being the terrifyingly awkward thing waiting for her, the thing she doesn't even know how to think about, that her own show won't even tell her how to deal with) outweigh the positives.
And somehow the positives here outweigh the many, many terrifying negatives this place has.
So she's just ...resigning herself to never seeing her sister again. Because if Lina doesn't come here, and Kat doesn't go home, that's exactly how it goes, isn't it? And Kat doesn't want Lina here, and she doesn't want to go home, so... so that's that. The seal could still do either one, maybe even both things, but there's no way to know.
So it's Lawrence and the friends she has here, and even though most of the time she's happy with that, she's just going to sit here and miss her sister, for a while, tonight. Later, she'll go back inside, throw herself at something to keep her awake long enough for other people to be up, and then she'll go harass someone, and it'll be all be fine.