As it happened, yes, he did. “It would be right if you did you know. But you never ever do. You always just so wonderfully gloss over all those things I’ve done. Which has to stop Alex, it’s dangerous to assume I’m always going to be anything other than what I was. “ And everything, every move Cutler had made was designed to impress him. Make his maker proud. He’d been given some kind of glorious reprieve to have Hal back, or so he believed anyway.
When he’d found out he’d died though, it had actually stung a little. Not that he’d ever bring that up with Alex. There were some things that just weren’t done.
Especially if he was right, and they’d begun to express feelings for each other. Those were dangerous too of course. He’d fall for her, it’d be lovely for a while, then he’d hurt her, just like he’d hurt so many before. Oh he couldn’t kill her as he’d done Sylvie. But ghosts were far from invincible and there were ways to make them hurt.
“In the process. I see, so you’d forgiven me for my part in it all, we’d become closer friends, one thing had lead to another and then…what, one day it wasn’t me anymore. And of course he’d use it. He’d love it. Every second of it. He’d find it hilarious to tear it apart. Tell you just how good it could have been but never would be now. Or he’d have done…worse. But at least you could prevent that if…”
God, the conversations he had to have. The things he had to think about when he thought about the future. Because this was all ahead of them. But there was one thing he was sure of. “I won’t let you fade Alex. You know I won’t. But for now, you have some people to meet. Lets get out of here”