She wanted to embrace him, she just didn't have the energy to move much more than her head at the moment. Everything felt like a ton of bricks. She could only watch him. Blond wisps of hair falling messily into her eyes. She felt like she'd been hit by a bus, but Dean was there. That was all that mattered. She would no longer have to stick to the darkness and face it alone. It hadn't been terrifying then until the light touched her eyes and she realized how much she wanted to be with him. She could only rest her cheek against his shoulder thanks to the fatigue that threatened.
When the doctors appeared, she tensed. The last experience with hospitals hadn't been so grand. She still had the scars to prove it. At least most of the mental anguish had faded, she no longer hid in her room, she'd even gotten back at the creatures that'd forced her to think she had to. Her fingers laced with Dean's, holding onto him like he was a life line. Above all others she trusted him. She always would. He made her feel safe, even in near death. Somehow she wasn't afraid because he was there beside her. Corny as it sounded, that was what real love felt like.
She was unaware that Rose and Cas were lurking,she was barely aware that anything was going on at all really. Just Dean was talking, and that was all she could focus on without wanting to ay back in bed and fall asleep. She focused on his face as she felt whatever medication they'd decided to give her threaten to take her under again. She didn't want to sleep. Not now. Not now that they were together again.
Even through the doctors that scrambled about checking vitals, making sure it wasn't a crazy fluke she concentrated on him. Even glared at one that neared when his voice broke through the medical white noise. That doctor backed up and left.
"Dean?" Was this it? Were they done? Was he breaking up with her after everything they'd been through because he couldn't deal? She looked at him worriedly, blue eyes watching his face as she sat up with a bit of difficulty. Then she saw it, felt it first really but it didn't register with all the hospital madness. Her expression softened and she waited for him to speak.