She didn't like that look in his eyes though she knew he still loved her. She could tell that. Sam loved her in spite of the horrible things she had done in the past maybe he could love her with the rest of it. The other awful things she was doing now. Maybe. Or maybe she was fooling herself. Seemed like something she would do. She watched him drink his beer mulling over her options in her head and reaching one annoying conclusion
Either way he was hating this conversation. Either way it was highly unlikely the night would end in handcuffs. Damn Andrea.
"I'm sure there was no problem, she'd had a kid already died young, that wasn't unusual then. They were trying to concieve which is why he assumed barren. Besides I'd told you I'd have been able to tell if the body had a flaw. And no, that wasn't the only, Y'know what, don't call it a case. Case implies it was something good, something normal or decent. It was evil. Like most of what I did before you. Like Emily who never got to finish college and died when Bobby shot her in the stomach technicly, but hung around cause thats what they do when we're in em. Hung around feeling and hating while the body is mine. Or the one a few decades before who died when a Hunter beat the body to death before exorcising me. I don't want you to have illusions about the woman you love. I don't want you giving me some kind of pedestal. I was what Alastair made me on the rack. And then you...you changed me. But, you know now that I can't get pregnant. For a demon to do so takes spells, and prophacy and hell itself willing it. It takes centuries and let me tell you, no one expected you centuries ago I can tell you that. The rumours only started swirling after Azazel went collecting deals from potential parents. Now I need to know you're okay with me?. Even if you're not ready to...y'know. I just need to know you still love me"
She asked and she really didn't want to. The thought he might hate her ate away at Ruby. She couldn't deal with that on top of all her doubts. Sam was the only living person she trusted and loved completely with all of her heart and tarnished soul.