When Myka stopped reading, Helena was going to say she didn't need to stop on her account, but then Aidan started fussing as Myka shifted him. While Myka was tending to Aidan, Helena set her baby monitor down on the desk. Looking around at the bookcases, Helena had no idea what books she even wanted to take. She'd read all of them all ready, many multiple times. Though at least she didn't need to fear running across a certain book that would remind her of Irene. She'd all ready sold that book at auction months ago. But things were different now, Helena had been changed just enough by the Seal sending her back home that the things that had bothered her, had haunted her and caused her to close up on herself didn't bother her as much any longer.
Regaining her memories of this place, of the people she knew, had been painful in many cases, but most of those memories and the emotions tied to them had settled into their respective places within her. Helena still felt for her experiences here, but they were not as potent or controlling as they had been a couple months ago. Stepping up to one of the bookcases, Helena plucked a book off the shelf, paging through it momentarily before returning it to its spot and taking a different one. While Emily was asleep, Helena wanted to take advantage of taking some time for herself, which was something she hadn't been doing much of. She was focused on Emily, on others that she'd been putting herself last in the importance of things.
When she heard Myka's question, Helena looked over at her. "She's still fussy. I think she fears I'll leave again." Her voice was quiet, so as not to disturb Aidan, but even the quiet tone carried a slightly pained note in it. She closed the book in her hand and put it back on the shelf. "I cannot blame her, though." She was too painfully aware of the nature of this place, and she well knew she could be sent home again in the next moment. So saying that she wasn't going anywhere was an empty promise, and she would not make it knowing it would undoubtedly be broken sooner or later. "But she seems to be adjusting, it is just difficult." Turning around to face Myka, Helena leaned back against the bookcase. There was a divide between her and Myka, and she knew it was there because she didn't have her memories of having been here before. And also because Helena had experienced things in their world that she knew Myka would take badly. She had such a heavy weight on her shoulders, especially knowing the Astrolabe was here. There wasn't a moment that went by where Helena felt she could relax. She had to be on her guard at all times. But she hoped by finding some common ground with Myka would help ease that to some extent.