It was a known fact, at least to those close to Helena in this world, that she hated change and had difficulty adjusting to it. It was a bit of a paradox with her given her life for the last one hundred and twenty years had been nothing but a long series of changes she had to adjust to. But that didn't mean Helena adjusted easily nor that she liked it. In fact, she hated adjusting, but it was something she had to do in order to keep herself moving forward. For a while, Lawrence had really seemed like a gift, even with the whole Irene and Moriarty thing she'd been subjected to, even with Pestilence seeing fit to aggravate the Janus Coin syndrome, even with Christina's ghost coming back. Helena had built a life for herself in this place. She had friends, people she loved and cared about, and she'd been settling into a life for herself, which was all she'd ever wanted. But then the Seal had taken Myka and Pete back home within a week of each other, then barely a week later the Seal sent Myka back from a future point in time without memory of Lawrence, without memory of everything both her and Helena had suffered through. So really, it was no wonder why Helena had shut down to those that knew what she'd been through. Claudia being taken back home had been the very last straw. Too many changes in quick succession had sent the Victorian woman off the deep end.
Then the Seal had sent her back home, back to death. Though that particular timeline was altered, and she lived through a time she wasn't so certain she wanted to. The Seal brought her back to this world with the Astrolabe in tow, which she didn't like, and after getting the rest of the story from Claudia, Helena had really been on edge. She'd shared her worries with Svetlana, which had helped calm her, but she was still worried that somehow this world would recognize what she'd brought here with her and force it to be used. But nothing more could really be done about it right now. Loki had put a spell on it so only Helena could touch it. She'd wanted the spell that way in the event she needed to move the Astrolabe to a different hiding place. Helena would prefer not to ever think of the artifact again, but it was in her care and it was her job to keep it out of certain hands, and she would see it done, even here.
Even when Helena had pointedly told Myka she couldn't tell her things until after Aidan was born, she was glad to not be cornered into talking about certain topics. It wasn't that she couldn't talk about them, it was exceedingly difficult to. She didn't want to have to explain everything she'd been through here. She didn't want to have to explain to Myka that Artie had altered the timeline and ultimately suffered a psychotic break because of it. But she would do it because Myka deserved to know, and Helena couldn't keep everything inside forever. So ever since Aidan was born, Helena had begun to prepare herself for Myka to ask her about something. She had to be prepared for any question, and some subjects were more difficult than others. But she wouldn't avoid any topic now when directly asked about it. Frankly, Helena didn't want to avoid anymore because she felt awkward enough as it was. There were times she felt she couldn't talk to Myka at all, and she didn't like that. But if Helena were truthful, she felt she couldn't talk to anyone right now because she felt so disconnected from everyone. Yes she'd talked to people since her return, most notably Svetlana and Claudia, but she was trying to find where she fit in all over again, and it was a very slow, painful process.