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Rumplestiltskin aka Mr. Gold (alwaysaprice) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2012-12-15 21:12:00

Entry tags:

belle french, rumplestiltskin/mr. gold

Who: Belle and Rumple
What: Decorating for Christmas and Rumple finally gives Belle the story he promised her back in Fairytale Land.
When: This evening
Where: Their home
Warnings: Cuteness and feels over Bae, so it shouldn't be too high?

Having spent 28 years in the Land Without Magic, Rumplstiltskin was accustomed to what Christmas entailed. However, until this Christmas he'd never had a reason to decorate or celebrate the holiday. Even when he'd pretended to be Mr. Gold, celebrating hadn't exactly been his thing. No, on the holidays that were typically celebrated, he would spend them alone, for that was what he had been; alone. More than that, he had been trying to find his son, working on a plan for how to get to him. But that was neither here nor there any longer. This was yet another world, and while he had wondered if this was the world Bae had been taken to, he hadn't voiced such thoughts. If only because he didn't want to go on a search only to find that Bae wasn't here. Rumplstiltskin couldn't take that disappointment again. Though he would be lying if he said he didn't have hope that the Seal would bring Bae to him some day.

As such, it was Christmas season, and this was the first time he was really decorating and celebrating. The only reason he was doing either was because he had Belle. He'd finally been reunited with her, and he had missed her. He was going to show her the wonders of the world, and Christmas was one of them. They had gone and purchased decorations and were now decorating their home. Currently in the living room, Rumplestiltskin was going through the decorations they'd gotten. There was some of nearly everything. Garland, mistletoe, Santas, so on and so forth. Unpackaging some garland, he took it over to the fireplace and began draping it along the mantle. Once it was in place, he took a few steps back and looked it over, wondering if it looked good enough in the place.

"Belle, how does that look to you?" He asked, motioning to the mantle. A part of the garland was a bit crooked, but there was only so much he could do when leaning on his cane. He had paid the price when he'd saved Henry and Ruby, having aggravated his bad leg. But he didn't complain about the pain, he just went on and did his best to rest it whenever he had the chance. That was the one thing he disliked about not having the Dark One in complete control, he was hobbled by his leg. The one good thing the Dark One did was heal his bad leg. But he had done good in helping Henry and Ruby, so he would not complain about such trivial things as pain.

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loveishope
2013-01-15 08:34 pm UTC (link)

He was sometimes adorable. She could say no more about it. He just was. And Belle smiled shyly as he told her she reassured him. "See, I knew it going in, remember? I didn't walk in blind. Not by far. And I saw you my love. I saw good where no one else bothered to look. And its still there no matter what you have done. You just needed someone to bring it out of you. Someone to love you for you. If I'm honest Rumple, I don't understand your wife. Why she thought you were a coward, why she left. Why she didn't cling to what she had for dear life because dammit, I intend to."

She didn't like mentioning the woman. It was what it was, this woman had been the mother to his child. This woman had shared a life with him that Belle never would. Not in the same kind of way. But because of her actions Belle had Rumple now. She'd never have known him if not for all he'd done. And that meant something too.

"I told you once, long ago, that love was layered. A mystery to be uncovered. And I believe we're doing that. Getting there. And you turned me away but I was coming back. I was going to storm into the castle and tell you not to be so stupid because I loved you. Because true love doesn't just go away. I was going to fight for us even if I was fighting alone because I found something to believe in. I believed in you. And we've been apart long enough Rumple. I'm not going anywhere and you are not going to lose me again. I'll always come back to you."

She loved him. With all her heart and soul and time, and life, and everything in between would not take that from her. "And you're changing. You are. I don't expect you to be a different man. But you're trying for me. And that means the world."

To Belle this was all she wanted in her life. To be with him. To know he loved her. To know they had this. They had now. "We have our house here, our life. And I will drag you kicking and screaming into being social because unlike Regina, you don't need to shout your intentions from the rooftops. People aren't stupid and they can see the effort you're making. It will take time but you'll get there. You have me to rely on. Always remember that.

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alwaysaprice
2013-01-23 07:43 am UTC (link)

That had been something Rumple hadn't exactly seen, that Belle had not gone into it blind. It was just something he chose to ignore in the moments when he'd acted defensively and stupidly. Because at that time, he'd doubted that anyone could love a man like him. Being the Dark One had changed so much about him, twisted him from within that he wasn't able to see the good in him any longer save for when Belle was pointing it out to him. "In that time, it was considered more heroic to die in the War than it was to run away from it. So I think that is why she thought I was a coward." And really, with everyone knowing his name and knowing him as the coward, how was he to ever recover his pride save for a desperate act of a desperate soul?

As Belle told him that she was coming back to fight for him, it clicked in his mind that that is when Regina had taken her. And then Regina had allowed him to believe that Belle was dead. Well, she wouldn't be keeping them apart any longer. If she so much as tried to do that again, Rumple would not hesitate to take Regina down. He would not stand for any threat on Belle's well being. Yes he was trying to be a better man for her, but he still hated Regina for what she'd done to Belle.

"I don't think I could ever be a different man, not without being rid of the Dark One for good. But I do wish to be a better man for you." He looked her in the eyes, a gentle smile on his lips. "Oh my sweet Belle, you are my strength. I could not do this without you." He reached out and brushed the fingers of one hand through her hair. And it was true, Rumple needed motivation for him to do things. For such a long time, Bae was his only motivation. Bae was the driving force behind all of his actions to get to a world without magic. And now Belle was the driving force behind him wanting to be a better man.

At Belle's comment of dragging him kicking and screaming into being social, he couldn't help but laugh gently. "Stating my intentions was never my way. Besides, everyone knows how I play with words, so my saying anything would go as well as Regina's claims. Actions are the true form of expression. And I will never forget that I have you to rely on, not again. We are in this together."

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loveishope
2013-01-23 10:06 pm UTC (link)

Belle didn't care what had been considered heroic. There was nothing to be said for dying stupidly. "Then in that time they were wrong and they were stupid and they ought to have known better. If you hadn't run you'd have died and I'd have never known you. Besides running from an unwinnable fight isn't cowardice. And you saved them when you had the power to, saved the children and stopped the war. That story I learned very early in life. I didn't know what you were then beyond 'The Dark One' But you'd saved lives. I knew that much. So when I made our deal, I knew you wouldn't hurt me. I knew there was more to you. There's always more if people are just willing to look."

His sweet Belle. She loved when he spoke to her like that, and when he was affectionate. Little things. Little actions, it was what had won her heart after all, and what slowly but surely had chipped away at his just like their little cup.

"You don't need to be rid of it to be different. I have never known you without it, remember? And yet since knowing you, you have become kinder, gentler, you've fallen in love, True Love. You probably never believed it existed before we kissed that day." The rest of that day, she didn't want to remember as much, it had started them down a dark road it had taken too long and too many tears to recover from. But they had and they were here now. Together. "I'll be your strength if you wish it. I'll be there for you always. No matter what. Because that's what love is."

Oh he didn't need to state any intentions. Belle was still going to make him social though!

"You may toy with words but people know you're making an effort. And not just those from home. People see the truth when its in front of them and they see you for who you are. And I am so grateful and so lucky that its me you love. That I'm the one that gets to share every moment of watching you grow and change. You may be the Dark One but you were a man first, you still are. Or do you still believe yourself a monster? If you can find love then why not friendship, trust, acceptance, are they any more beyond your reach then to fall in love was once thought?"

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alwaysaprice
2013-01-29 08:35 am UTC (link)

The fact that Belle took the time to look deeper than the surface was something that still occasionally surprised him. Of course, he knew she was smart enough not to take things at face value, but when it related to him, he was rather a bit surprised by things. "People often wish to focus on the short comings and not on anything else. I do wish there had been more people like you there at that time, but I wouldn't change anything that happened because it means I never would have met you." Really, Rumplestiltskin couldn't imagine his life without Belle. Well he could given he'd lived that way in Storybrooke, but he didn't want to live without her if he had any say in it. It was because of her that he was trying to be a better man, trying to be worthy of her.

"I knew it was out there in some form, I just never believed it was real for me until that day." He too didn't dwell upon the happenings of the rest of that day. It wasn't exactly the best memory they could share. "You are my strength, Belle, and I always want you here with me. I love you." He took one of her hands in his and held it tightly, reinforcing his words. Oh how he didn't want to be without her again. He knew that without her, he would turn into the monster he had been before she came into his life. Before she showed him that even a monster like him had some good within him and that he could be loved for it.

Leave it to Belle to point these things out to him. He never made a spectacle of his intent to change. He had no need for flair and wanting people to know he was trying to be different. No, he was one that did it through quiet action, allowing his actions to speak for themselves. "I find myself not precisely caring what others think of me in this. All I want is to be as good of a man as I can be. As for my view of myself, well, that is a complicated subject, my dear. But let us call it a work in progress, shall we?" He couldn't help but smile a bit. "You do have a point. If I can attain love, friendship, trust and acceptance should not be overly difficult to attain."

Though after a moment, he remembered he had been telling his story before getting side tracked. "I seem to recall I was telling you about Bae. Did you want to hear the rest of it?" He wasn't trying to change the subject, not at all. He was trying to keep his promise to tell Belle the story he owed her. And there was still a key part of Bae's story that needed to be told, one that would allow Belle to understand his motivations for everything he had done since losing his son.

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loveishope
2013-02-04 02:34 am UTC (link)

Belle didn't care about what people chose to focus on. She knew what she would focus on and that to her was more important than anything else anyone could try to tell her about the man she loved. They'd been separated often enough for various reasons and dammed if she was going to let it happen again. He was so different here, she could tell that already. He was helping others, he was there for her when she needed him. He was changing, trying for her, and she just wished everyone could see that as much as she did. As he talked about his love for her, how he'd come to find it, how she was his strength, she didn't quite know what she could say, what did anyone say to words like that?

"I'll always be here for you. If you need me to be that strength then I always will be. I always want to be. I didn't ever imagine I would find a love like they write about in my books. But I did, I have, and I won't let it go for the world. Though I imagine you know that."

She smiled as he explained his intentions over again. She knew well how he felt about others opinions of him, he'd never cared. He never would care. He was doing this for his own reasons and those happened to be her. If it was a work in progress then she was happy to see it and to help it continue as times changed. But in this place she knew it wouldn't be easy. Never could be. This was the world they lived in now, different than their own of course, but with new dangers to fight and new lives to live, and new festivels to observe.

Though not quite yet.

"I want to hear the rest, of course I do, if you're willing to tell it? I understand it can't be an easy topic for you"

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alwaysaprice
2013-02-19 05:48 am UTC (link)

It was strange to him to be this way, to change and try to be a better man in a place where he had the chance to be different. The Dark One was unable to control him completely, and he could keep control of himself. At least until Belle was threatened or harmed, then he would lose control and give in to his dark side. But the fact was that he was trying. He just didn't make a spectacle of it because no one would believe it. His change was subtle, much like how he always operated, but it was evident to those that actually looked. He had never been one to care about becoming entangled in other people's lives except when they came to him for a deal or when he needed something from them to further his own agenda. Otherwise he simply sat back and watched everyone around him. He still had the watching mentality, but he had risen to the occasion of being a better man when it was called for. And he would always try for Belle, after the length of time they'd been separated for, he didn't want to lose her all over again.

"I will not let it go either," was his simple response. He didn't need to mince words or use double meanings when he spoke to Belle. While playing with words was a bit of a trademark for him, he was trying not to do it as much. Which sometimes was easier said than done.

Smiling gently, he took in a breath. "Not overly long after my wife left my son and I, it was nearly time for Bae to be taken by the army and sent to fight in the Ogre Wars. I was desperate to protect him from that fate, and I tried to find some way to keep him from suffering that fate. I didn't want to lose him, too. I tried to escape with him in the middle of the night, but we were caught by soldiers and given a warning. Though I met a man who knew of a way I could get what I wanted. He told me that if I controlled the Dark One, I could keep my son from being taken. No one argued with the Dark One. He told me of a dagger that controlled the Dark One. So with Bae's help, I slipped into the castle, took it and left. I noticed a name was engraved on the blade of the dagger, but didn't think too much into it. I summoned the Dark One, but when I discovered I didn't have control over him, I was angry and I stabbed him with the dagger. I realized it was the man who had told me of the dagger in the first place. I killed him, and the name on the dagger's blade turned into mine. I then became the Dark One. The next morning was Bae's birthday when he was to be taken, and I stopped the soldiers from taking him."

He paused then and looked at Belle. "That is how I became the Dark One. All to protect my son. I didn't know until it was too late that I had to become the Dark One in order to control the power." And in the time since then, he had come to have a better understanding of the burden that it was to be the Dark One. It wasn't an easy burden to carry at all. Being the Dark One meant losing everything you were before, losing control over being any other way. But even so, he didn't regret it because it had allowed him to save his son, though it had also led to him losing his son later.

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loveishope
2013-02-20 01:32 am UTC (link)

Oh that was it. If that sad excuse for a wife ever showed up in this city Belle was going to slap her. And it was not going to be pretty and it was not going to be ladylike. How could she have abandoned her husband and her child. How could she just leave him there to raise the boy, to protect him from a War that Belle well knew the horrors of. Though protected in her castle she had seen much of the suffering of the townspeople. No wonder Rumple had taken the chance when he'd been offered it. Control over the Dark One. Belle wasn't going to judge as one who had urged her father to call on Rumplestiltskin for help. When they'd had no choice and nowhere else to turn. She knew the feeling.

And then he'd stabbed the old Dark One, gained the power and...Oh. Oh she understood. And it had all been to protect Baelfire. All of it. Everything he did, in their world had been for the boy he'd wanted to save from the Ogre Wars. Everything he...though how could that be if he had as he said, saved the boy?

But for now, she would put her thoughts and questions aside, he needed her and she would always be there for him just as she promised, "Oh my love..." she managed, her hand squeezing his that little bit harder. "You made a rash mistake in error and that power it, it took you over didn't it. That's why when I kissed you, you thought it was Regina attempting to take it from you, leave you weak. You thought I was going to make you weak."

She had a thousand questions with more forming in her mind the more she thought about the story he had told her, and there was yet more to ask. There was so much yet that she didn't know and that she wanted to know. So many mysteries still to be uncovered. But she knew as well that he had told her a lot. He had opened his heart to her and she should let him take a break now, they could get back to their tea, get back to the lights, get back to celebration and just be happy being together again after so long apart. But there were two questions that stayed. That refused to let her leave them lie. "Rumple, I'm going to ask two questions. You can answer them now, or you can leave it, you've told me more than enough, you've given me more information about your past than I ever could have imagined and really, you don't need to keep this up. But I have to ask them all the same because they're important and maybe they're relevent or maybe I just need to know. Where is Baelfire now? Is he back home? You saved him, did you lose him with the curse? And second...the Dagger now holds your name? Holds your curse. Where is it?"

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