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for sale (vampslayer) wrote in wariscoming,
@ 2012-11-03 13:21:00

Entry tags:

buffy summers, spike

Spike & Buffy
Saturday night
Spike's place
In progress

Buffy spent the first part of the night patrolling. She was itching to find something to kill to get her aggression out, but the seal wasn't about to give that to her. She just spent the night thinking about everything that she'd been through over the past couple of months. She felt lost. She felt disconnected from her friends, even from her sister. Buffy knew she did it to herself. She kept herself apart to survive. She had to, but after Sunnydale was destroyed and all the potentials were turned into slayers she had hope. She had hope that maybe her life would be different. That maybe she could be normal. It was too much to hope for. Obviously.

It was about 2am in the morning when she arrived at Spike's door. She wasn't even sure how she got there. She had just naturally gravitated to his door. Maybe it was subconscious. Maybe she was reaching out to him. Maybe she just missed him. Either way she was there staring at his door with a stake in hand. She put the stack away in her jacket and searched the door for some kind of answer, but nothing came. She figured Spike probably knew she was standing there. He could always smell her a mile away. There was no turning back now and she found she didn't want to. She raised her hand to knock on the door and then stood back and waited.

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vampslayer
2012-11-06 04:51 pm UTC (link)

Buffy wouldn't have blamed Spike if he told her to get lost. It might have been better for both of them if he did, but deep down she knew he could never say 'no' to her. Was it horrible of her to ask that of him? Buffy wasn't sure. All she knew was that in that moment she needed to be loved by someone who didn't want anything from her and who really understood her. Only one person fit that bill.

Buffy took Spike's hand in hers and followed Spike back to the couch. She sat down next to him and pulled her legs up underneath her to get comfortable before placing her head on his chest. One hand reached up to rest just under her head on his chest and she nuzzled in.

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notbloodycasper
2012-11-06 05:08 pm UTC (link)

Spike hated his complete inability to say 'no' to her. It had always been an issue, created more problems than it solved really. But it was there, and it would probably always be there, and they would always end up in this bloody cycle they couldn't seem to get out of.

Truth was, no matter what the reality of the situation was, he loved her. He loved her more than he'd ever loved anyone and she made him want to be different, to try to be a better man.

He wanted to speak up, to says something, anything, but he couldn't find the words. She was having that effect on him a lot recently. Maybe there was no need for words. Maybe it was just this.

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