Buffy swallowed. She wasn't sure she should be saying any of this, but something about Spike always brought out the truth in her. She just couldn't lie to him. There was no reason to. He loved her no matter what. She'd never been loved like that before.
"I miss that," she admitted. "I wasn't lying when I told you that I loved you. I know you don't believe that I could or that I should, but I do. Being here? In this place? I just... want to be held like that again."