Family was supposed to be. Stable. She had kept him from his family. Because they didn't trust her. Because they knew what she could do. Knew that she was far more than just a damaged girl who spoke in riddles. They wanted answers but didn't have them. Didn't have a way to get them because River didn't know the truth, just that she was made this way. That it wasn't fair because the memories weren't hers. The secrets. Why did she have to feel it all? They stripped it away, the ability to filter.
"Had to leave his work that he never should have started. They're upset because he left without a word and everyone had to cover. Upset because he did it before. He's hurting but won't stop. He wasn't here anyway."
She knew why. There hadn't been much progress made with the distracted doctor. After she had woken up, she hadn't really had much time. She just knew that he had known Simon. But he never should have been there when his mind was lost in its own chaos. So she nodded at why Jacen hadn't been there, tensing at the mention of sleep. She didn't want to sleep. She never wanted to sleep. Especially after being forced to. Because Dick spoke the phrase and didn't know. Because back home, it had been Simon before she had woken up here.
Twisting her hair more, River shook her head.
"Don't make me sleep again..I don't want to sleep."
Sleep was death. Sleep was the thing she feared right now. But she also did wonder if it was possible. Mara and Luke had tried in different ways. Had Jacen been able to? With her? Her with no memory now. She didn't know how that worked. It couldn't be put into scientific fact. It was like the Shepard's symbol. Turning into paper. Talking confused her, or it confused others. People tended to have a hard time following her as River usually just spoke a stream of consciousness.
"She doesn't remember but wants to see."
And sometimes it was speaking in third person. As if that would change who she was. But maybe it would help. Maybe she'd know what made her hurt people then. If it even mattered. If they didn't hang her for attacking. But no. They could have done as such after she'd been put to sleep. Could have made it permanent and one less danger to worry about but they didn't.