"Sir" he said with a sigh. "Must you be so formal with me, even now?" He had to ask it. He found he hated when she was like that with him. It kept her at a distance which of course was the point. But she had agreed to this meeting. She'd wanted to meet him which of course was probably so she could tell him to leave her be. And if she ever did, if she told him to leave her life forever Guy was unsure of what he'd do. But no, she could not even look at him could she. Not even bring her eyes to meet his. She was scared of him. And well, of course she was, but seeing it. Seeing her unable to look him in the eye.
"So formal and you cannot look at me. Perhaps this was not a good idea?" he suggested taking a slight step back out of her way. "You can leave if you wish. Or I will leave. I have no wish to scare you."
He hated this, every second of this but he supposed also that he deserved it. He had not been the same since that day in Acre. An injured King, everything he ever wanted at his feet. All he'd had to do was take it, one more life, just one more death and it would all have been his. But then Marian, all full of fire and love of her nation and she'd told him no, told him it was her or the King, told him she'd loved Robin Hood and could never love him.
And then her blood stained his hands and he had realised what he'd done. And of course the Sheriff was there and the logical thing had been escape. He had not the mind to think of anything else. "....I don't...I cannot ever make up for that day. But this, the way you are now. You fear me Marian. You'd been wary of me before of course, there was always a part of you worried I suppose I had stabbed you before not knowing the truth about the Night Watchman. I'd killed so many, unashamedly. You knew what I was capable of, especially by then, the truth of my time in the Holy Land. I've seen disgust in your eyes, revulsion even as well as a pity I did not know what to do with. But you always saw good in me. You always thought I could be more than I was and for that I loved you. For that I still love you, only now I'm the man who took your world from you. I wish..."
He shook his head, what use was a wish, empty words, empty promises.