It was far too late to keep her from getting hurt by this point. Isabela was too attached. She didn't exactly like it, felt as though it made her weak and vulnerable. Which, in a way, it did. But at the same time, it made her stronger in other ways. However even with that knowledge, she still didn't like dealing with these situations. She wasn't always good with words when she was attached. And considering she was in a love triangle? That just made this even worse for her. What made her kick herself the most was knowing that before she'd even slept with Jaime. Yet here she was, obviously having ignored all the signs going in.
Looking Jaime in the eye, she well knew he didn't plan it. But still it had happened. Sometimes people just didn't expect things to happen. Isabela herself hadn't planned on this. She had seriously only intended it to be one of her "love them and leave them" things as she usually did. But obviously that hadn't worked out because here she was sitting next to a man she just wanted to hold and give her heart to completely. The cruel bitter irony is that she had been about to do that when Cersei had arrived in this place, and she'd gotten as far as holding her heart in her hand. And now it was broken and bruised from what had happened after that. "I didn't plan on it being anything more than sex. I didn't plan on caring about you as much as I do. And yes, they certainly did change."
As she gazed back into his eyes, Isabela could not mask the emotions she was feeling. The pain, the ache, the need to be loved. Because underneath the facade she put up for the world, underneath the rough exterior, all she really truly wanted was to be loved and treated as the human being she was. But she was so very afraid to give herself to someone in that respect. And now she was even more afraid to give herself to Jaime in such a way because he had hurt her once all ready. What was to stop him from doing so again? What if he turned out to be like her late husband or her mother? What if he started treating her like a possession and not a person?
"For starters, don't be a colossal dick to me. That is the fastest way to make me run away and never come back. And I mean it, Jaime. Pull that bullshit with me again, and you won't see me ever again." It was more than a threat, it was a fact. Isabela was not one to give anyone a second chance, yet she was possibly about to give Jaime one. "For another thing, don't lie to me either. I don't care how blunt anything is, I can take it as long as it is the truth." And Isabela couldn't but fear she was making a mistake in this moment. But one sometimes had to put all their money on the line in order to win the jackpot.