Holding everything in was definitely not the way to go. Helena wasn't walking that road again. She couldn't walk that road again. She truly wanted to take this chance to be who she'd used to be. It was difficult, and the guilt of her actions was crushing her, but she knew she had to work through it all. She wanted to work through it all. More than anything, she wanted to see the future with optimism again, to be able to hold her head up high and know she was stronger for getting through everything instead of being one of the great figures of history whose downfall and end could not have been written more beautifully or tragically than how she'd lived it.
At Myka's promise, Helena looked at her. Instead of scoffing or pointing out it was impossible to promise such a thing, Helena managed a small, grateful smile. She greatly appreciated the sentiment, and it was reassuring. Perhaps if Myka and Claudia were watching her it would be easier to avoid such an unfavorable outcome. But Helena well knew all bets were off when dealing with a psycopath. After all, she'd seen plenty of the type working at Warehouse 12 and in those she'd encountered after being deBronzed. Namely Sykes, who was someone she was trying to forget about.
"At least Moriarty does not have access to the Janus coin." No doubt he would use such a thing against her, if only to watch her with glee and no doubt turn the body she left behind into some psychopathic killer or something. "Or access to any artifacts for that matter."
And for the first time in several minutes, Helena took a breath and actually felt a little of her anxiety ebb away. But not much. She still paced back and forth, listening to Myka.
"That is my hope, but Moriarty's endgame is always Sherlock, not Irene. So it stands to reason that sooner or later he will get bored of playing with Irene and turn back to Sherlock." Which undoubtedly meant they didn't have all the time ever to come up with counterattacks for Moriarty's moves. It was going to be difficult planning because Helena truly didn't know what to expect from Moriarty. He wasn't the one from the books, so it made it harder to know if his plans would flow the same or not.
While Myka wasn't a chess player, Helena was. She had a mind geared towards strategies and being able to see the pieces on the board and defend and attack successfully. But she needed more information about Moriarty's game in order to better defend against it. She needed to see where more his pieces were. She needed to know exactly where Irene stood on the board as well. That would no doubt be the key to this.
"I know you will hate this, but we need to talk to Irene. Whether you like it or not, she knows Moriarty better than either of us do. She no doubt has better in sight into his games than we would." Yes she knew Myka would sooner shoot Irene for causing all of this, but Helena also knew Myka would listen to logic. And really, talking to Irene was logical. "If we are to successfully keep making counterattacks, we need to know more of where his pieces lie on the board. I need to see more of his strategy."