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Caitlin Snow/Killer Frost ([info]frostandsnow) wrote in [info]wariscoming,
@ 2011-06-15 22:23:00

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Entry tags:ruby winchester, sam winchester

Who: Ruby & Sam Winchester
What: A letter arrives
Where: Their Bedroom
When: Early Morning
Rating: Probably low but TBD
Status: In Progress



Ruby heard the door, just a little noise, someone dropping a letter off and quickly finished making Sam's coffee before practicly running to the front hallway. There it was. Just an envelope, something so simple but she held on to it like it was the most precious thing in the world as soon as she'd put the coffee down and bent to pick it up.  The puppy Sam had bought for her seemed just as eager to play with it as she was so she had to move him back just to get at the letter. The address was handwritten and she knew. This was it. And it was a hell of a time for it to arrive. Sam was still in bed, sleeping off the various injuries he'd gained, from where he wouldn't tell her but she knew it was more than just his fight with Dean. He was too badly hurt. She hadn't questioned when she'd found him. She'd just helped him to their bed, dressed his wounds. Made sure he was comfortable. It crossed her mind only once that her blood would heal him. It wasn't worth it. Especially for the sake of why they'd gone to find a doctor in the first place. It wouldn't do either of them any good to start down that road if in a hypothetical future they'd start trying for a kid. They hadn't had one in the future but then they hadn't had the animals either. They hadn't been so very domestic as they'd become. As domestic as a Hunter and his demon wife could be at any rate.

She turned the envelope over in her hands a few times not sure if she wanted to open it or not. Her gut told her it wasn't good news. If she could have had kids normally they'd really have been Brangelina by now. Hordes and hordes of kids. They had a lot of sex. Something would have happened by now. So in her heart she knew what the contents would say. The doctor had been kind if a little wary of her. Told her she'd done something amazing just by walking away from hell. He'd done tests. Sam had left the room when she'd needed to give blood, under much protest mind, he'd been calling in from the hall asking what was going on. Oh so protective. The Doctor had done what he needed to do and told her he'd have news in a few days.

And it seemed he did.

Ruby finally nodded, grabbed the coffee from where she'd left it on the table near the door, and moved toward the stairs quickly tracing the familiar path to the room she and Sam shared. The room was dark and the puppy bounded along behind her, but waited at the door. Fluffball was curled up on the pillow she had not long vacated. Ruby moved instead to sit at Sam's side of the bed waking her husband with a soft kiss and looking over the injuries to his face with a critical eye. He was stable still. He'd heal. He was strong. "Baby its here, the letter from the doc." she told him handing over the envelope and his coffee as soon as he was awake enough to take them.  "I'm pretty sure its a no, I mean...it'd be impossible if I could and we hadn't yet but maybe there's something we can do. He said he'd look up some stuff, let us know. But if I can't I mean...thats okay isn't it. We said it wouldn't change anything..."

It wouldn't, she knew that. Sam loved her too much to let it change anything, and she was expecting not to be able to. But there was a small part of her. A tiny part of her that said maybe, maybe it was just coincidence that she hadn't gotten pregnant. Maybe she could and maybe someday... Nah there was no point. The puppy jumped at her legs seeming to sense the anticipation in the room and Ruby reached down to pet him, it didn't do much to take her mind off any of it.

"So...do we open it."


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[info]frostandsnow
2011-06-18 08:56 pm UTC (link)
How could he completely turn her emotions just by hugging her. She didn’t understand it but she knew she’d never be capable of loving anyone else the way she loved Sam. He could make her feel better just by being there. And he was hurting and he still went out of his way to make her feel better, pulling her close to him so she would know he cared. And he told her it was okay, how she felt. Told her she was allowed to feel bad. Allowed to let it show. And she knew that, she was around him. She hated that she was being so irrational and, dare she say it.. girly about this. It shouldn’t have mattered to the demon that she couldn’t have a kid. It was probably better for the world that she and Sam never could. But that part of her, that little voice in her head saying Sam deserved better, deserved a wife that could give him some semblance of normalcy, it kept screaming at her that she was hurting him. He might not say it, he might not think it at all but she was. Because she was keeping him from having any semblance at all of a normal life. She was more than convinced Mary thought it too, and Dean, and everyone else that cared about Sam. And she knew it was probably ridiculous and that he’d yell at her for even considering thinking like that but there the thoughts were larger than life as usual. She knew how much Sam hated to see her upset, she felt the same when he was, and there was nothing she could say to make him better. But unlike her he didn’t deserve to feel like that. Or no, was that what he wanted her to stop doing. Putting herself down. Acting like she deserved every bad thing that came her way. But she did. 800 years of evil, surely she didn’t make up for that with a short time of being the good guy. He was always saying she deserved to be happy, and she was, she was happier than she’d ever been, this was just one more knock. And she was used to taking them.

And she was right, because then Sam said it, told her to stop putting herself down, and she couldn’t resist another soft kiss against his chest.

“I know. I was actually just thinking you’d say something like that...” she said amusement finding its way into her voice.
She knew he’d give her the world if she wanted it. But Ruby didn’t, had never wanted the world. The world could be for other people with more ambitions that live happily with the man she loved and be the best wife she could be. What else she wanted was simple, and impossible, and a ridiculous dream she had to give up before it had even really become anything stronger than a future potential maybe. When Sam started talking about his childhood though she smiled, she knew it well, the whole story. But hearing it from him? That was different. She hadn’t known the effect the teacher had had on him. One experience that they hadn’t tainted on him. And it seemed the guy had had an effect. They’d wanted Sam to be the perfect solider, and John was training him up good and proper. But someone had made him believe that he could be more than that, there was nothing wrong with that at all.

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